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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Good night my friend. I hope you can get some rest. ❤️ @Former-Member

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Ice cream time my @Lee82

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Hi my gorgeous friend @Former-Member just want you to know that I love you and am thinking of you beautiful. Please be kind to you today.
sending you a gentle hug 💗

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Hey @Lee82 , Right back at you my love. 💜Nikki

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Hey Nikki.. How are you going my love?

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Not so crash not today. But I have to do a couple of things Izzy hasn't been able to manage. We need a new psychologist and they now want us to pick out of three psychiatrists and she has been cancelling her appointments with Nat so I have to book some in as well.

@Lee82 , how are you and your gorgeous little men doing

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I'm so sorry Izzy's struggling so much. I know her recent memory has been extremely rough on her. My heart is breaking

So happy you are around to protect her my friend. I know looking for a new Psychiatrist is a tough and stressful process but finding the right one for you will be worth it. Please make sure she connects with Nat. I feel like Nat helps her a lot.

my boys are doing well however Mr8 is worrying me quite a bit. I am better than yesterday but still struggling with my thoughts and anxiety and I didn't sleep much last night so really tired.
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Please be gentle with yourself my love. Hope that Mr8 will be ok, poor little man. I hope there are options to help him. @Lee82

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I need to get him tested for a range of things through the paediatrician. Poor kids struggles with so much.
What are you up to today besides making a few phone calls? @Former-Member

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Give the little one a hug from me. Not much, struggling to stay present today. I do have to have a look at the business's bookwork as she has been neglecting that as well. It's just so hard to focus these days and with that last memory our world just completely fell apart. It was already a mess but dad was the one shining light through the misery, he was our belief that at least one person really loved us through our childhood. It's hard to explain how empty we feel right now.

@Lee82 , how are you doing my sweet

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