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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Oh honey I am so so sorry. I really don't know what I can say to help and I'm sure there wouldn't be much that would help right now. All I have to say is that You did not deserve that from yet another f**ked up person. I wish I could sit with you right now and tell you just how beautiful you are and how much you mean to me and how much I love you. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you that I'm sorry for all the hurt you are feeling. I want to be able to tell you that I will protect you and I wish I could take away all that pain for you honey.
you have a lot of people around you now that love you so very much. For now you need to focus on that. Take one step at a time and please stay safe my friend.
I am here for you right now. 🌹❤️
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💜 @Lee82 thanks babe

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Hey gorgeous how you doing? @Former-Member

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Right now I am dodging concern looks from the family as I am curled up on the couch listening to our playlist with earphones and at a volume my kids would get in trouble for. It helps drowns the world out

@Lee82 , how are you this afternoon my love

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Lol....do as I say not as I do....my favourite motto. 😂
@Former-Member

I had a sleep this afternoon. I was just so sick from being so exhausted. Mr12 is cooking everyone dinner tonight. Chilli con carne. Mum is helping him. I am sitting on the couch in the kitchen listening to music as well.

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Did you make an appointment with Nat honey? @Former-Member

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You ok my friend?

@Former-Member

❣️❣️❣️

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I am ok, just exh2 wants me to do some stuff😞 @Lee82

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Ok honey. What does he want you to do? @Former-Member

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He had me do my meditation and have dinner. He is such a sweetie but really annoying right now. 😂 @Lee82

How are you my love

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