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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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He is sending you them now...💕

@Former-Member

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How are you holding up my love @Lee82

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I'm ok...what about you honey? @Former-Member

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I am ok, struggling to fall asleep tonight though. It's the new meds I think maybe not strong enough. Are you anywhere near sleep @Lee82

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Yea I am the same. Mine are not working either so I am nowhere near sleep. I hate being in a bedroom. I am freaking out a little. Triggers happening.

trying to focus on being in the here and now talking to you guys.

@Former-Member and @outlander

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@Lee82 , wishing there was more I could do to help you beautiful. I am extra sad now @outlander @as I lent my neighbour my vanilla essence and can't do any of my baking 😭

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Thanks babe but I guess it's my fault. I haven't told mum about my issues with the bedroom so how can she know. @Former-Member

Will the vanilla essence make that much a difference if you left it out?

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I guess that's true Lee, but your history with her probably doesn't make you inclined to share such things and I am sorry for that my sweet.

yeah not having vanilla will make a big difference to the taste. @Lee82

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Bummer can you maybe make it in the morning? What time is your family coming over? @Former-Member

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I will have exh2 run to the shop as soon as he is up I have all day. Well I guess I will say goodnight, still not sleepy but I am going try some meditation or my favourite songs. I will be thinking of you my sweet.

@Lee82 good night.

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