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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I just wanted to thank you all for your support yesterday while I was in the middle of my nervous breakdown. It was very heart warming and amazing to read everyone's messages and concern when I was able to get back on last night. All of you are just such beautiful amazing people.

Thank you so much it meant the world to me.

@Bunniekins @Former-Member @outlander @Former-Member @Shaz51 @NatureLover @Pollyotter

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❤️ @Lee82

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Omg how could I forget one of my special friends😞😞😞😞 I am sorry Nature. I really hope you manage a rest sleep last night. I hope today finds you well and peaceful. Sending you all my love and hope you find moments of peace today.

🌵💖 @NatureLover 💖🌵

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Aww, thank you for your beautiful message, @Former-Member ❤️ I am OK thanks. I hope you were able to get some sleep last night...and that today is bearable for you. You are a beautiful person.

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Feeling so unsure about the appointment this morning. Stress and anxiety levels high, can't think. Thank god Sean is coming in, we are just about to leave and I can't seem to catch my breath.

https://youtu.be/gyvyJ6SGhp4

@Lee82 @Former-Member @NatureLover @Bunniekins

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You will be fine @Former-Member 💞💕

All your supporters here will be with you in spirit. In fact you may have to explain who the crowd are, to poor Sean. 😆

Onwards and upwards. Good luck, and I look forward to hearing from you afterwards. This is a big, but very important, step for you to be taking.

Anxious? Of course you are. 🐶 Remember to breathe .. slowly in and out, count.

Sherry 🌸🍀🌺

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Babe I'm here with you always. I'm so sorry I haven't been around much today. It's Mr8 birthday and things are just feeling a little out of control for me right now but I have my brother and mum here with me.

Love you unconditionally babe never forget that.

@Former-Member

I will pop in as I can throughout the day

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sitting with you @Former-Member
offering my hand to hold and squeeze if you need

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thinking of you @Lee82 ❤❤

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@Lee82

hugs @outlander , @Former-Member , @Former-Member , @NatureLover

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