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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey babe. Just a little worried about you hun. You have been a little quiet today. Everything ok?

@Former-Member

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Sorry Mel, not holding up so well after the psychiatrist appointment this morning. I hope Mr9 is enjoying himself. Happy birthday little man. @Lee82

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I'm so sorry babe I know how draining it can be. Sending you hugs my beautiful friend.

@Former-Member

Thinking of you. Thank you for the birthday wishes for Mr9 💗🦋💜

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Hey babe you able to share what the psychiatrist said? All good if you can't or don't want to.

@Former-Member

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Thinking of you always babe

@Former-Member

Love you 3000

💗🦋

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I can't remember anything he said to be honest, my head won't stop spinning, I can't seem to find center, images after images keep coming. He poke at every little dark hole he could see and now I am left seeing them. I am of course safe, Sean is with me and will be staying with for a whole as he got to hear things I was hiding from him and Nat.
No where to hide now. 😞 anyway that is my miserable story. I truly hope all my friends have had better days.

@Lee82 @outlander @Former-Member @NatureLover @Shaz51

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Oh gorgeous I'm sorry to hear all of that. It is horrific I know. Just please take it easy the rest of the day an new kind to yourself.

So Sean is staying the night tonight babe?

Has the monster been around today?

@Former-Member

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@Lee82 @Former-Member thinking of you both, knowing how hard it is right now. sending lots of love and hugs
🤍💛💜🧡

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Sherry, my wonderful friend, your reply to my post as I was leaving for the appointment gave me a good giggle. I read it to Sean and he laughter and said the more the merrier. Thank you that. How has your day been? @Former-Member

Little one, thanks for letting me hold and squeeze your hand, I am sure it should be the other way around, but it was greatly appreciated. I hope all those tests will bring you the answers you need gorgeous girl. @outlander

Hey pea, love and hugs to you. @Bunniekins

Nature, I hope your day has been restful and that you are ok tonight. @NatureLover

Mel, yes to both of your questions. But enough about me, how are you holding

up beautiful? @Lee82

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support works both ways @Former-Member im quite happy to lend you my hand to squeeze or a shoulder to lean on if you need. I also have good hugs too so ive been told so you can have one of those anytime 🌻🦖
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