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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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goodnight @Former-Member i hope you sleep well 💚🌻🌻🦖

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Well said @Former-Member regarding @Lee82 ... thinking of you both. 🌺

Good night @Former-Member ... sleep well. 😴 And thank you for being the wonderful person you are.😇💖

I hope your pain levels after tripping over Nics is controlled adequately to enable decent sleep.

Sherry 💕

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Hey my beautiful friend. I'm so sorry for worrying you my love that was not ok. I had a massive meltdown. I ended up under my table in the fetal position crying uncontrollably my friend down the road just happened to stop by and found me there. I passed out and she called the ambulance. Mum also ended up poppin over and saw a very terrible scene. Everyone saw my SH marks and now I have my mum sleeping on the couch next to me.

I can't begin to tell you just how sorry I am for putting you through this. It would have been The last thing you needed. I'm so so so sorry babe

I love you more than you know and it is hurting me so much for what I have done to you.

@Former-Member

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@Former-Member Hey Izzy I had a calm day thank you. Nothing extraordinary happened which was good. I hope you are sleeping okay tonight, that any demons are leaving you in peace. Hopefully we can catch up real time today. Love you Izzy. peaxxx

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@Lee82 Hey Lee82 will be thinking of you every day that you are away and saying a little wish on the stars that I see on my morning walk for you. Love to you always. peax

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Thinking of you @Lee82 ❤

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@Bunniekins morning little pea i hope todays a good one 💚💚

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@outlander good morning outlander I hope you have a kind and caring day today hunny. Love peaxxx

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Morning Mel, I hope you managed a little sleep. Please don't be hard on yourself about last night, we all know how are things are for you right now. Fingers crossed a bed becomes available soon and that when you come home to your boys and come home to all of us here you are in a far better and far safer place. One of my many wishes for you is to able to spend the day with your boys doing things they love and not be triggered, not to become anxious and to enjoy every second of it. That is just one of the many wishes I have for you my love. I carry hope for your future in my heart every day and can't wait for you to see the hope and freedom yourself. I love you Mel. ❤️Izzy

🌸💖 @Lee82 💖🌸

Good morning little pea, I love waking up to your beautiful messages. It really puts a smile on my face and brings a little joy to my heart. I am glad yesterday was uneventful and I hope today will be filled with love and light. 🦋💖 @Bunniekins 💖🦋

Sherry, good morning gorgeous lady, I hope you managed some rest last night. Sending you all my love and hope that today you will see the joy in little moments and know how much you are loved and cared about.
🐶💖 @Former-Member 💖🐶

Shaz, morning lovely lady, I hope you had a peaceful night. I can't remember if I answered you question about horse therapy 🤨 I hope you and Mr Shaz have a good day today. 🍄💖 @Shaz51 💖🍄

Morning Zoe, I wanted to leave you a message on your thread but can't find it. Missing you heaps, I hope you are ok.
🌟💖 @Zoe7 💖🌟

And good morning to everyone I have missed and is passing through today

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Good morning beautiful. I hope you were able to get some rest last night.

@Former-Member love you 3000 to infinity and beyond 💗

Good morning @Bunniekins @outlander @Former-Member @Shaz51 @NatureLover @Pollyotter and anyone else passing by.

Hope your day is a good day.

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