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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am exhausted my love. Nat gets good results but the process is hard and the monster is always heighten afterwards. I have already fallen once since her conversation.

How did your appointment go Mel.

🌸💖 @Lee82 💖🌸

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I'm so sorry babe. I know how hard it can be. I wanna strangle that monster so badly for you babe. I understand how exhausting it can get.

@Former-Member

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I feel the same for you sweetie. How was your appointment today? If you don't want to tell me that's fine but please tell me and not ignore the question please. @Lee82

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I have had a hell of a day. Saw my psychiatrist today. He also wants to put me in hospital. Seems like everyone just wants to lock me away so they don't have to deal with me. Had a massive panic attack in his office and past out. To top it off Jules has just left with the boys so I have been triggered and I am not in a good place right now

@Former-Member

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Ok so like you told me this is the best place for you to be tonight. I am so sorry I have been so wrapped up in my sh*t that I forgot what weekend it was. Have you had anything to eat today? What are you doing right now? I am going to tag our friends because we both need to reach out tonight. I am also not good but Sean is here so I am safe. @Lee82

@NatureLover @Former-Member @Bunniekins @Pollyotter

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Is he staying the night babe?

@Former-Member

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@Former-Member Izzy are you okay?

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After he talked to Nat after my session I have no hope in him going anywhere 😞 @Lee82

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Hey sweet pea, not really. Been trying hard today to be present and not give into the thoughts but it is harder to ignore them at night. I am really worried about @Lee82 , tonight, this is a tough night for her.

thanks for asking my beautiful friend.

🦋💜 @Bunniekins 💜🦋

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@Lee82 and @Former-Member I'm here... I can hear that you're both not in a good place right now 😞

What do you need?

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