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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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You promised

@Former-Member

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I’m so sorry Izzy. 😔

@Former-Member

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I know and it breaks my heart that I broke that promise. Please forgive me @Lee82

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Greatfully excepting her pats from you @Former-Member 🐶💖

@Lee82 🌸💖😞🌸💖

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There's nothing to forgive babe. I am just relieved you are still here although I wish you weren't disappointed with that. 😔

@Former-Member

I will always love you unconditionally

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🌸💖 @Lee82 💖🌸

🐶💜 @Former-Member 💜🐶

🌵❤️ @NatureLover ❤️🌵

🎧❤️ @The-red-centaur ❤️🎧

🦋💖 @Bunniekins 💖🦋

🌻🦕 @outlander 🦕🌻

Thank you all for your support especially this morning. You are all my angels, you have no idea how much you all mean to me and help me get through each day. 💖💜❤️💖💜❤️

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I think I have a pretty good idea @Former-Member ... because there are many members here who mean the same to me. 👍🌺💓🤗

Sherry

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Thanks @Former-Member ...I always like how you choose individual emoticons for each of us, with a 'nature' one for me ❤

I hope things are bearable, but I fear they're not. 😥 I was glad to hear you can still go to the horse therapy, although am I right in getting the impression you feel nervous about it?

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Hello Nature, I like to personalise messages as much as possible especially when I tag members the way I did in my last post. I am glad you like yours. 😀

Today things are bearly bearable, but am managing to distract myself cleaning out D3's bedroom. Sean is hovering around popping in and out trying to give me space but not to much at the same time.

I am very nervous about the upcoming therapy because this is my only chance of staying out of hospital if this doesn't work then I won't have any choice in the matter.

🌵💜 @NatureLover 💜🌵

How is your day going my love?

🌸💖 @Lee82 💖🌸

🐶❤️ @Former-Member ❤️🐶

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Yes, I like mine 🙂 @Former-Member

Thanks for explaining about the therapy, I wondered if you were nervous of the horses. I've heard very good things about horse therapy, and would love to do it myself...I really like horses but am nervous of them as I've never had much to do with them unfortunately.

Good for you for trying to distract yourself when things are so horrendous for you...wishing you strength and hope and peace.

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