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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member , it feels so very lonely out here. But thanks for being in here.

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I know Izzy, and you feel as though you have let others down. That thinking is not helpful @Former-Member

Tell me .. do you need medical assistance? 😞💘

I'm worried about you. Is Sean coming around this morning?

I'll stay here with you as long as you need Izzy.

Sherry

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@Former-Member I haven't really been online much or spoke to you lately but Im here if you wanted to talk, you are not alone.

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Hey Red, I am so sorry I haven't been around to support you not is a good space myself. Thank you very much for the support this morning. @The-red-centaur

@Lee82 Love u

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I'm here too and can sit with you @Former-Member ...

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I am so sorry Sherry, I fell asleep. No medical attention required I think just super sleepy. Sean got here 4 hours ago and hasn't left my side since. Thanks for sitting with me lovely it's nice to know someone is there. How is your morning going? Give miss Holly some love from me. @Former-Member

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@NatureLover , thanks my friend.

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Relieved to hear from you @Former-Member and also that medical attention is not needed. Sean must be quite a guy! How lovely that he has been by your side to watch over you these last 4 hours. Im very confident in handing over my vigil to him 😀. I hope you may get a little more sleep, or at least rest.

I will definitely pass on some love to my little Holly. 😀💜🐶

And if your Nics is over her sulks about not getting her daily walks, then give her a cuddle from me.

Remember .. I'm only a tag away.

Sherry 💕

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Morning my love, I am sorry you didnt get much sleep last night. Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you as always and I am positive your appointment today will be ok.

I am so very sorry I lied to you and outlander this morning. I hope you can forgive me. I didn't want you worrying about me or to cause you more stress. Sean is here now and not leaving my side so I am safe. I hope I haven't broken our trust and that you are ok.

Love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always

@Lee82

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You are one very special lady and friend Sherry. Thank you for sitting with me this morning 😘 He certainly is one in a million kind of guy, this is why it was so hard when he left. We still have an amazing connection.

I will bribe Nics to let me couple her for you with her favourite treat 😂

Thanks again my beautiful friend. @Former-Member

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