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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor27 Apr 2020, 3:55 pm AEST

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Pain meds are helping with my headache @Former-Member which is a great thing because I can't do anything with a headache but battle through the nausea. Going to get dinner soon and then settle in for the evening on the couch again. I will see how I feel after eating and then make a decision on tomorrow,

It is great that your ex is so supportive Hon - and despite it being uncomfortable he obviously cares about you. It is keeping you out of hospital too so that is good as you clearly do not want to have to go there. One day at a time @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember27 Apr 2020, 5:24 pm AEST

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Sorry I didnt get back to you earlier @Former-Member

Like you, I tend to switch music depending on mood.

No real favourite song, but a preference of 60's and 70's music. Though I like a fairly wide variety of different music and artists. Roy Orbison is probably one of my favourites. I also like some classical music at time, when in the mood for it.

No real plans today. Celebrating hubbys 72nd birthday though. So I had better go and get dinner prepped, and a bottle of good red wine to celebrate. Hoping I can get him to stick just to the wine tonight. 😔 Hard though with him being an alcoholic. We can only try I guess.

Hope today has been okay for you. Waves also to @Lee82 and others here. 👋

Sherry