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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Yea kids have amazing ears. They hear everything. Can I ask how old your granddaughter is? I am so happy for you babe that your family will be with you tomorrow. That is definitely something to look toward to. @Former-Member
I am pretty much the same as I was yesterday babe. Mums been on my back all day. I have had enough and I'm ready walk.

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My little Miss is 11, beautiful, caring and far to sassy for her own good. 😂

@Lee82 , oh babe I am sorry she is being... well being her. But you know you can't walk don't you? As much as it sucks you don't want to be hospital and away from Mr12 and Mr8. Sending you all my love my beautiful friend. 💖

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Oh so cute...💓

I'm not going anywhere honey just feel like running. She is not making it easy for me that's for sure. Making me really feel the guilt. I know its probably her way of telling me to never do that again as she thinks this was my first attempt.
so what goodies are you going to make for tomorrow? 😋 @Former-Member

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Well along with your other friends here, I really hope it was the last time. No one wants to lose you😞💜 @Lee82

well I sent exh2 out earlier to get what I needed for cookie and cream cheesecake thanks to @Shaz51 😂 so I will make individual cheesecakes, cupcakes and most likely triple choc cookies which D2 has named death by chocolate (her favourite cookie)

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Oh wow that's sound deathly delicious..😂

gotta post some pics of the finished products. Any chance you could send a few in the mail...😆😆

@Former-Member

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hey @Former-Member
sorry to interrupt but your making me hungry with what your baking! it sounds soooo good esp the cupcakes and cookies!
any chance you can send some my way when they are ready 😋😋🙃

hey @Lee82 @Shaz51

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@outlander , my sweet you are definitely not interrupting. You flatter me, they might all be horrible 😂😂😂 how are doing tonight my friend.

@Lee82 , what are you up right now my love. Exh2 is doing his impression of a freight train so I am going to take my chance and take my little fur baby for a little walk. (Don't stress, I am ok) a little peace and quiet

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Right this second I am outside having a smoke...lol but I am Just in my room listening to music trying to stay present and distracted. Boys are in bed mum and her partner are in their room.

Jusy be careful walking at night babe. Pls. @Former-Member 💙💚🧡

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but they sound sooo yummy! @Former-Member I love baking but I haven't been up for it for a while esp now since im not able to eat it or not much of it atm. but these are virtual so it doesn't count 😁😏 youll have to upload some pics when they are done!
can you make caramel slice? ive always wanted to make it but every single time I can never seem to get it!
ive just been studying, submitted 2 assignments today (one this morning after doing it last night and then one I done today) im to tired to do much more and its been a big (and disappointing sort of day) today. I can tag you where I wrote about the day if you like.

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Well it won't be a long walk as Mother Nature has foiled my plan, it's now raining ☔️ 😂 @Lee82

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