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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey @Lee82 , I am just curled up on my couch listening to my new favourite playlist at the moment. My night meds are being changed because they are keeping me zoned out all day, so we will see how that goes. How are you today my love?

Sending you all gentle hugs @outlander @Shaz51 @eth @Former-Member @Sans911 @Zoe7 @Appleblossom

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Hi @Former-Member ... really good to see you today. Sorry to hear that night meds are taking time to get right. Takes a while sometimes, but worth percevering. Hopefully your patience is rewarded.

Thanks for the gentle hug, it is returned with much gratitude.

Enjoy your music. Any alltime fav songs?

Take care.

Sherry 💜🌞🎶🎵

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@Former-Member , I have such an eclectic taste in music that I really don't don't have an all time favourite song. I switch a lot depending on mood. Right now I have a mixed playlist, but I seem to have the album "Painted Desert Senerade" by Joshua Kadison on repeat. Do you have an all time favourite song Sherry? Any plans for the day? 💖

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Yea night meds can be tricky sweets. Mine are the same hence why I didn't take them often when I was home alone with the boys cause if ever there is an emergency they won't be able to wake me and half the day I felt like a zombie.
I am pretty tired today as I didn't really get much sleep. Just helped Mr8 with some school work but now just laying on the couch watching tv.
@Former-Memberhow you feeling today?

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@Former-Member I hope today is going okay for you and you are coping with the med change

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@Lee82 , I am doing ok I guess, just very zoned out. Having exh2 here is uncomfortable too say the least, his heart is in the right place but having him watch everything I do is not making it easy. I know I shouldn't complain because some would love the support I get from him but he is an ex for a reason. I am sorry you aren't getting enough rest at night time my love. Hope your afternoon is an easy one. 💖

@Zoe7 , how are you today my friend? Just pushing through with the med changes because the alternative (going to hospital) is much more frightening. 💖

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Not great today @Former-Member Sent home from work because I was too unwell to be there. I have slept since I got home though and feeling a little less nauseous. Still have a headache but meds are kicking in and dulling that a little too. A very early night is on the cards for me tonight.

Those med changes are not fun at all Hon but having support there to help you get through rather than hospital is great. Even if it is the ex he certainly must care for you so I am glad he is with you. Take care of yourself

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I know it must be uncomfortable having exh2 there honey but it is definitely better than the alternative. I am in the same boat. I am being watched every second of every day too. It's not a great feeling. Feels like you are a criminal in prison. You don't feel trusted but you are definitely cared about.
my afternoon is easy. Just laying around watching tv the rest of the day. Sending you a great big hug my friend. Love you to infinity and beyond ❤️ @Former-Member

hi @Zoe7 I'm sorry to hear you are not feeling well. Hopefully with some rest you will feel much better.

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Hugs to you both @Lee82 @Former-Member

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@Zoe7 , I am sorry you are feeling so unwell today, hopefully by now those meds have kicked in and given you some relief. Yes I am very great full that he is here no matter how uncomfortable it is. There is still a lot of love between us but also a lot of unresolved issues. Please look after yourself and hopefully an early night. 💖

@Lee82 , Love you 3000, my love

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