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@Lee82 @Pollyotter thanks I really appreciate that and it means a lot.

I know its hard to say because thats for me and him to discuss. Personally I would say that he'd complain himself, saying "my patient is feeling more suicidal, depressed, etc since seeing this nurse", or something along those lines. He knows more about the health system than I do. I know bits and pieces but not all of it, I know my rights though.

I asked my parents and they said that he would be best complaining on my behalf because something would be done about it and he'd probably keep pushing them to get answers (in a professional way not a rude way, just trying to care for me) and things would get done quicker and the way they should rather than me complaining. Would you agree?

Anxiety is really setting in but not sure I can talk about any of it right now. Thanks for asking @Pollyotter

@Pollyotter thanks, same to both of you

@Lee82 is there anything I can do? You can speak if you feel comfortable.

I hope I haven't upset and triggered anyone @Pollyotter @Jynx , I'm so sorry if I did.

I'm talking to Lifeline on webchat now. I've used it so many times in the last few days they're probably sick of me. I hope they understand.

That's what they are there for babe. @Former-Member

No matter how many times you use there service. Remember too it is never the same person so they probably don't even know how many times you have been on.

@Lee82 thats true. I've never had a bad experience with Lifeline but I've only used webchats, they've all been kind and understanding luckily, never told me to leave. They say reach out when I need to.

I'm not comfortable with talking on the phone but maybe one day. Ever since I saw this Nurse on April 27 (2nd time) I've been feeling this way - more suicidal and depressed and this is upsetting my parents too and I feel so bad and like a burden

Sorry to make this about me @Pollyotter @Jynx

@Pollyotter @Lee82 sorry I keep typing so fast, I've always been like that.

If there's anything you missed from earlier just let me know and i'll type it again, like the question above in a few comments?

@Jynx can I please send an email? You or any mod can check it and reply. I wanted to say some stuff that I don't want to say here because of guidelines (no one's done anything wrong I just don't want to trigger people).

Please? I need to right now