Numb again

You haven't added to it @Pollyotter please don't ever think that. We all come here to share and get support. I am sorry I can't help you more

Yes we will. @Pollyotter one way or another.

@Pollyotter @Lee82 Just checking in on you both - I can see it was a bad night for you both and I hope today has been a little better

Hey @Zoe7 how was your day with your school kids today?
yeah yesterday and last night where not great for me...full of triggers and flashbacks. Today I felt numb kind of like my body is trying to protect itself from everything that happened yesterday. Now my anxiety is starting to rise because it's heading into the night.
hiw you doing today? 💕

I hope @Pollyotter is doing ok? Haven't heard anything today 💗

Nights are my real danger time too @Lee82 Mine are related to sleep - not wanting to, flashbacks, potential for nightmares and associated anxiety. Putting in place a routine at night has helped but that has been difficult with work - and went completely out the window over the holidays. Having things to look forward to, goals set for the next day and those routines at night take time to work out and follow but it does make a difference in the long term. Maybe something worth looking at and giving a try.

My night time anxiety is because of the same thing @Zoe7 flashbacks and there are a lot of triggers for me hence why the past 2 years I have slept on my couch and not in my bed.
tea I need to be better at night time routines. I have tried these in the past but not consistently. I am more about trying to distract myself for as long as I can and being on this forum in the middle of the night is a great distraction but can be difficult sometimes if no one is around.
how you doing @Zoe7 ?

I am the same with bed - it is a difficult place to be when I am not doing the best @Lee82 My couch has a permanent doona on it for those types of nights ...Tobes sleeps on it when I don't need it

Routines take time to get into - it is re-learning how we approach sleep, the anxiety around it and the effect that all has on us. ...and when you are in the midst of that anxiety, having a flashback or the nightmares hit it is really easy to forget those routines and revert to what we have always done.

Yeah it is hard when no-one is around when we need that support the most - been there a lot over the years but also been extremely fortunate that the majority of that time there have been people around I could connect with - both here and my GP and psych. I am so lucky to have had all that - and it has saved me more than once.

Do you have a safety plan @Lee82 It might be good to do one if you don't - not only to keep you safe but to refer to there is not any other support available at any specific time.