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That really sucks @Lee82 He would be such a great support for you at the moment Do you see him every day?

Hi there @Lee82

I am hearing that you are having a really difficult evening. We all hope you are able to get some rest and peace tonight. Please keep yourself safe in the meantime and if you need help off the forum and someone to get support from there are the 24/7 helplines: Lifeline 13 11 14 BeyondBlue 1300 22 46 36 and Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467.

Please take care Lee

Whitehawk

Thanks for understanding @Zoe7 it is comforting although it really does sadden me that there is someone out there that feels the same way. That finds it really difficult to find things that work to minimise what's going on in the moment. I have never found anything that works which is super frustrating cause I always hear great suggestions and also hear what works for others but I can never find anything for me.
I do see him everyday. I do go over of course with someone watching me and have a little play around with him. I get my boys to take him for a walk cause I just don't have the capacity to it right now.
@Zoe7 @Pollyotter

Thank you @Former-Member I am safe

Your worry about tomorrow is very valid @Pollyotter just try staying in the moment as best you can my sweets.

I think it is more common than you might realise @Lee82 When we are stuck in that perpeptual state of despair and emptiness there really does seem like there is nothing or no-one that can bring us out of that. I have found a few things that help just a little but on the whole there is nothing that can do that all the way - it is both frustrating and depressing in itself. Most often it really is about passing time for me in order for the worst of it to pass - and even now where I am in a much better place there are still times that I do not want ot go on anymore. Luckily I do not push Tobes away now though an hug him even more in those times. Without him I would be very much lost myself - both he and Cat give me reason to live and reason to keep going. You have your kids Hon and that is something for you.

Boris is a blue pure English staffy. He has just turned 2. He is full of jumping beans. He loves to snuggle just as much as he loves to jump around.
@Pollyotter @Zoe7

Hey @Pollyotter There is nothing you can do tonight that will change what will happen tomorrow Hon. That is no consolation at the moment but stressing over it right now is just using up energy you could be putting into something else - maybe time to break out the games to occupy your mind a little. Have you thought about writing a list of things you would like to work through - and maybe ordering them according to your priorities - it often helps to go into appointments with some notes in case you feel you cannot talk ....I used to do that because quite often I could not find words when I was there.