Numb again

Managed to eat something but took effort with my headache - won't bother cleaning up just yet - need t rest some more.

I used to have Netflix but there was not much on there I could be bothered watching. I am not a big movie fan - much prefer my British crime series and I have Foxtel so I have access to a couple of channels that show those. I watch a lot of ABC and Iview as well. ....and of course sport when it is on

I hope having both Netflix and Stan help with distractions for you - especially now you have made a cave for yourself in your room.

I am really pleased to have been able to help in even a small way. That is the power of the forum - we all have different ways to cope and by sharing some of them we can often pick up things we never thought of or expected.

I actually know what you mean about the voice - my psych recorded herself guiding me through a meditation - it was not the meditation itsefl but her calming voice that helped. Some tones are triggering but hers was definitely calming.

I don't know about a pug but I would certainly like to know what is going through Toby's head sometimes - he just did his nightly run, bark, scratch and rollover thing - it is super cute and makes me smile every night he does it.

Good luck with sleeping tonight Hon - hopefully your new space will help. Don't work too hard tomorrow - look after yourself as well. I'll be thinking of you in your long day. Hugs and hugs

No drama Hon - I hope you had been sleeping @Pollyotter

Yes my headache is much better - think it was more lack of sleep.

I finished painting the last coat of the walls and ceiling last night and today - so now just the trims to go. I brought the big spotlight in from the garage so I can do some of that tonight. I have a couple of spots that need patching and sanding. I can patch them tonight, sand tomorrow and then paint them also. So by Thursday I should be able to put all the furniture back and clean everything. Friday will then be school work so I can have the weekend off before I go back to work.

How are you travelling today?

Sorry you had another scuff with your family @Pollyotter That is really hard Hon

But I am so glad you are seeing a new GP tomorrow - hopefully you can get a Mental health Care Plan and then find someone to talk to - let me know how it goes.

I still have the trims to do but have not had the energy this afternoon. I started the sanding but my arms are quite weak - most likely after all the painting - I did all the walls below the trim and ceiling in one go last night then did the rest this morning. It did take some time today as I couldn't hold my arms up for long at a time. So resting tonight and will get stuck into it again tomorrow.

Going to do some washing and clean up a little though tonight and then some cooking. Hoping also to get to sleep earlier but have had a couple of naps during the day so that may not happen. I did snuggle in with Toby for a while before I fell asleep so that was nice.

What are you up to tonight?

I have a pictue of you in your cave snacking on m&ms @Pollyotter

Hon it is not your fault your family are as they are or that they cannot accept who you are - that is there cross to bear - you just be your authentic self and they can come to the party if they choose. Yes it does hurt but you are doing nothing wrong and expecting change is natural because you love them and want their acceptance. Unfortunately, as you know, some people have entrenched ideas that are hard to change. The most important thing is you know who you are Hon

This is not Toby but I bet he would this cute in a boy version...

Hey @Pollyotter I had some time out from the orum last night - needed complete rest from everything. I haven't done any of the trim painting yet but all the sanding is done and I did do all the washing and mowed both the front and back lawns.I also did some cooking I wanted to do so it was a very busy day. Today is now trim painting day as well as sanding the top of my side table and grind off some metal edges. I will then varnish the top of the table before a I put it back where it belongs.

I am really pleased you got your Mental Health Care Plan done and your GP is helping with some medication - hope that helps Hon. Also glad you are going to talk to someone - it will hopefully help to work on soe strategies when those thoughts come into your head and/or you have flashbacks. I do hear you about the talking stuff - I also find it easier to write/type as words do not often come face to face with someone.

So sorry you hurt your shoulder - did you do it whilst working? That will make it hard to do your job so I hope you are okay today.