I need some reassurance

hi @Eden1919 you're suffering from delusions.

No one is controlling you, no one can read your mind. There are no fake, husk people being controlled by anyone or anything. You are experiencing delusions.

I have schizophrenia. I am on another forum for just schizophrenics, you may find it helpful. A lot of people there suffer from delusions and they are very similar to what you are now describing. Your fears & delusions are common symptoms.

@BryanaCamp But if what I think is true then you would say that.... but also if that is what it is then how come things have really happened because of this? I am not just making it up I keep trying to find reasons it isn’t like this but then everything keeps bringing me back to here. Obviously you can think what you want/do and I know I am not explaining things well at all but if I could just ignore it I would and it would be much easier for me to think it was all fake but everything keeps taking me back to this and how much am I supposed to ignore there is only so much I can do.

Hi @Eden1919

I can assure you that no one can read our mind or listen to our thoughts - we do have that much privacy

And we are entitled to our beliefs and some people will try and change our thinking and it's hard - who can you trust? I can't answer that but I do understand your need for privacy

That's a tough one

People can and will tell us what they think is going to help us and I have just been told that antidepressants might ease my physical pain but I am sceptical and won't take them - we have the right to refuse - you have had bad experiences in the past as I have

But who do you trust? Who can you trust?

I can't tell you that but I do understand your need to protect yourself

Dec

@Owlunar I just feel like I need to be able to talk to someone about it but I know that isn’t possible and I know there is nothing I can do about it but that doesn’t make it easy. I know no one believes me and that is ok I just hate hiding. It makes me tired.

Hi @Eden1919

It would make you tired - keeping it all to yourself the way you are

It would be great to be able to talk about it with someone who understood

What you are talking about does sound a bit like things that are paranormal - perhaps you could look it up on the internet and see if there are chat rooms where you could discuss it and you would be safe

All the best

Dec

@Owlunar @Serenity1 thanks for the replies. I have looked into/heard of the things you both mentioned.

I feel very weird today I can’t even explain it I feel like everyone is just bored with me and annoyed because I don’t just agree with them without good reason too. I just feel so stuck and trapped with no real way to go anywhere no matter what I do someone is not happy I just don’t want to always be feeling scared. I feel like I am falling again.

I guess I was right everyone is sick of me. Oh well I can’t blame them I am too.

I don't think anyone here is sick of you @Eden1919 .

I'm around for a couple of hours if you want to talk. Is uni finishing up soon or has already?

@Gazza75 They seem to be sick of me here and in ‘real life’ I feel like everyone is only happy with me when I am doing what they want, here I have to be fine and ‘normal’ and coping and at home I have to be happy and productive and then even with the other world stuff I have to be doing what they want or everyone just get annoyed or ignored me or just tells me I am doing the wrong thing. Like I get everyone is tired of having to deal with me but don’t they realize I am tired of dealing with me too??? Uni is finished for the year.