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Made everything up?

Made everything up?

Since my last suicide attempt I had a change in psychiatrist (due to the fact I'm in a surgical ward for 3 months, so I now see the hospitals CL) who reverted my diagnosis to BPD.
It's made me wonder if I ever was really psychotic over the years and just made everything up (to the point in believing) and my hallucinations and delusions were just fake for attention. Like someone who made stuff up to get others to think they're sicker for attention.

Anyway i kinda feel like that.

Voices told me to attempt suicide but maybe I just made that up too and I'm just a stupid pathetic person that needs to die.

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@The-red-centaur How are you going? I hope soon you get some much needed sleep.xxx

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@Bunniekins I eventually got to sleep. I'm sorry about all the hassle during night.

@Eden1919 @Former-Member greenpea thanks for the support overnight. I appreciated it.

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Hi @The-red-centaur

Really glad you got some sleep and that you are safe. Thanks for letting us know 🧡

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@The-red-centaur

Its really hard to know what to say after learning of your serious suicide attempt 😢 You must have been so distressed and alone in the world to want to 'go there' to end things. Sorry you have to endure this. We are all connected and i feel it.

I am fortunate not to have outwardly acted on my SI for some years now, but know how terrifying this battle can be.

You are so brave and I really hope you eventually walk normal again, without too much pain.

I'm glad you're alive, and getting help, and have another chance to enjoy this beautiful world a little longer (my favourite is the birds, flowers, rolling hills and waterfalls).

I'm praying your today goes well and this life chapter turns things around for you.

It will be hard at first but there's much more support and less stigma with physical recovery - make the most of that and any emotional guidance offered.

You'll get through... we must live for the good days 🌄 They will come .. . that's what I keep telling myself anyway lol

Let us know how surgery goes 💜

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Hope you are doing okay @The-red-centaur .. really glad you had some support last night.. takes a lot of courage to keep going.

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@Bunniekins @Former-Member the surgery was a success, I'll know more about how it went during surgical rounds tomorrow. For now I'm in a lot of pain and they can't give me more pain relief.

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@The-red-centaur , doing the happy dance for you. So glad the surgery is successful 😁👍 Hopefully the pain will ease when swelling does. You hang in there. Keep talking with us, I'll be popping in and out 💓💛💓💛

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@The-red-centaur That is wonderful news :D! You were in my thoughts today. Cannot wait to hear more tomorrow after the doctors see you. You have been incredibly brave my dear friend The-red-centaur :). Talk during the night if you are up. Hopefully you will be sleeping well and not in too much pain. Love peaxxxx

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@Bunniekins pain is excruciating...I really can't cope but they can't give me anything. I don't think I'll be sleeping.

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@The-red-centaur Hi sweety how come they cant give you any decent pain relief?

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