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Made everything up?

The-red-centaurSenior Contributor21 Nov 2019, 11:59 pm AEDT

Made everything up?

Since my last suicide attempt I had a change in psychiatrist (due to the fact I'm in a surgical ward for 3 months, so I now see the hospitals CL) who reverted my diagnosis to BPD.
It's made me wonder if I ever was really psychotic over the years and just made everything up (to the point in believing) and my hallucinations and delusions were just fake for attention. Like someone who made stuff up to get others to think they're sicker for attention.

Anyway i kinda feel like that.

Voices told me to attempt suicide but maybe I just made that up too and I'm just a stupid pathetic person that needs to die.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor23 Nov 2019, 9:00 am AEDT

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@Bunniekins I'm on max doses of all the oral pain relief. It just not helping.
At about 3 I had an injection and some sedatives and it calmed things for a few hours and I managed some sleep. It's bad today still.

I have really good news from the surgeons though. Saw them this morning and I'm allowed to weight bare in my moon boots following next week. I'll be able to walk eventually.
My legs have sever muscle degradation though and my ankles are going to have to be fixed together later on. But I'll be able to walk 😁

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor23 Nov 2019, 3:43 pm AEDT

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So Glad you have some good news.

@The-red-centaur

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor23 Nov 2019, 5:29 pm AEDT

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@The-red-centaur that is such wonderful news. It has made my day to hear that. xxxx:) ps: keep me posted as to how it all goes. Love peax

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor23 Nov 2019, 6:47 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins my pain is finally under control and it will get better quickly over the next few days hopefully.
I'm so tired so hoping to have an early night and sleep half the day tomorrow if I need to.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor23 Nov 2019, 7:37 pm AEDT

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@Appleblossom thank you that is beautiful

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor23 Nov 2019, 7:39 pm AEDT

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I drew this today...good distraction from the pain.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor24 Nov 2019, 5:48 am AEDT

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@The-red-centaur Good morning The-red-centaur I hope you slept through the night. I did!:o! Have my ex coming today to see the kidults.will be pretty busy but hopefully will be able to catch up with you later. Take good care of yourself and keep those wonderful drawings of yours coming. Love peaxxx

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BlueBaySenior Contributor24 Nov 2019, 6:28 am AEDT

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Hi @The-red-centaur

@I've been reading your post and I'm sorry to read about what happened.
but ...... I'm so so happy to read the op went well and even better news you'll be able to walk again. 😊
take it easy have faith. You will get through this.

take care @The-red-centaur xxxooo

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor24 Nov 2019, 9:03 pm AEDT