Sleeping too much

hmm well may be indoors not leave front yard day yet @Former-Member ..still early, well still waking up.. sometimes I get bursts of energy even on crap days, well its not crap yet anyway. Only reason need to go out is food. Yes I know you didnt mean firewood. maybe I'll get a book out re diversions

..oh ..sister redirected a letter which I got the other day , so txted and said 'thanks' and mentioned that they were still welcome to drop in if they came over this way again. Well she mentioned they had planned to when saw her at xmas, well dying father in law etc stopped their trip apparently. I was taken aback that they said that, no contact whatsoever is the norm with her.

..so ..2 days later, get a 2 word txt 'sure will' ..first responses in mind werent acted on. I just won't reply to that.

is that your dog poking out from under the blanket? so cute

Hi @Former-Member hmm walk maybe, ribs usually worst when I first wake up, so not very motivating, its odd, I sleep ok, then soon as get up it;s ..ugh .. putting off pain stuff as long as can

was thinking swim, in bed this morning while mostly asleep, taking hours to wake up, told self in head would find bathers(think in car) and even go to shallow pool just for a 'splash' to get moving ..not today maybe. Will pick 2-3 things off list to do later maybe ..coffee coffee coffee ..

yes, svenska lol ok bickies too maybe, think my shout, ok its virtual lol

..oh ..rain ..yes well take care ..can be speccy if not stuck out in it

Hi Bella, my little town got flooded in a couple days 2011 floods but that's the worst it gets here in the GDRange foothills. You guys on the coast sound like you are gonna to cop it today - I hear. Umm, Why do you have to 'rerinse' your washing? Do you have a dryer?

Is your girl safe at home? My son is working today, driving, in Brisbane - hope they let him home early as advised by SES. All a bit frightening.

My mother is being cruel again, woke my son up early today left a tx msg saying "its mum here .." My S1 rang me early to check if it really was me as it was a 'silent' number and confused him. It's the sort of thing nan does i told him, but could be a prank. My mum (or sista) didn't ring me for my birthday again - they know that hurts me, really must get thick skin.

I'm feeling nauseated over it all, going to bed, Gonna put a big movie on or something. Distract the mind.

Maybe see a Dr ?heart. Or not. lol

Hi @Former-Member

Ah - this anniversary thing runs on until July - when he died - and it is not bad every day but yeah - the anniversary thing is a process rather than one day -

I guess I will plan to go away in July again - that gives me time to think about it and give my dd and gd time to recover from taking care of the feline monster again or time for me to get over coming home to such a feline meltdown

I don't think I could cope with a tour - I am a late starter and would not be able to keep up with the itinerary - and sitting in one place in the train would be a tough deal too - but yeah - planning to go away in the winter is the best thought - just planning an event is better

Also - this is the first day and although it's chilly today and the sky is gloomy - I am feeling better than when I woke up - and I have an opinion myself that it is okay to feel down-in-the-dumps from time to time - as unpleasant as it is - because most of the time I feel okay

But thanks so much for understanding and for your ideas - where will I go in the middle of winter - somewhere else - maybe Queensland

I am annoyed that I had to change my appointment with my pain specialist that was a couple of weeks ago - now I am waiting until late May to see her - and I want to talk about getting my licence again - then I could just drive off on my own

Not driving is the pain - it's a pain I have every day - and I want to drive again but I have no idea if that is legally possible - and people drive with heavy medication all the time - but I was honest and stopped driving because of that - when I was taking much more - and that bites me all the time

Thanks Tawnz

Dec

Aw @Former-Member

I am sorry that your mother is having another one of whatever ails her and is being cruel - this time sending a bit*h of a text to your son early in the morning

Not at all fair

You did not deserve all of this - and yes - one can say that your mother is ill and can't help herself - and I suppose that is the case - but this does not excuse intrusions into other people's lives

I guess all your son can do is to leave his phone off overnight until your mother gets over this - and yes - I know that she may not have long on this earth - but still - you need to protect yourself and turn your phone off at night too and wait until you are able to take looking at one of her texts or taking one of her calls

This is sad - it is a much sorrier situation than I first thought - it is a cruel situation for all involved and I have the feeling this has been the case for a long time - most of your life in fact

Ah sheesh - life is not always easy - I get that -

Dec

Hi @Former-Member

Thanks for your kind thoughts - this is a particularly hard anniversary - my son went into prison just after Easter in 1986 and died there in July the same year and it always gets to me even if I make myself believe that this will not happen - it still does

I know I did all I could from him and before he died I had to tell him he had broken the law and I could not help him about that - I had warned him that he would end up in prison and he made sure he did

Yes - it was a suicide - and one thing we can always help ourselves with is to remind ourselves that we do not cause a suicide - it is the decision of the person who does it - and when some one is in that frame of mind they will often end things. I think of the pain and unhappiness he had - and know he is better off -

But every year - it is hard - and I get by with a little help from my friends. Last year everyone was great

Dec