Sleeping too much

@Zoe7, know how that feels, appreciating our 'forum friends' and community helps me. Are you ok this morning after Chrissy, can't recall, did y do something special?
I'm in a slump, cranky with myself for emotional reactions, ruining things again. Stuff MI hate it (oops, there's the anger already), gonna go have a lay down. 🙂

Thanks @Appleblossom, for yesterday's reply, means a lot that some agree that charging 'board' was the right thing to do (not the attack or unfairness he thinks). Anything to do with money in family (& friends) seems to cause conflict. So hate that!
Y'day my son was prattling off all the this GS I candle do to make money on the side.

Hi @Former-Member, thanks for asking, yes I'm in a slump, even have a bad headache, and my bones ache. And sad for my sun who is breaking up with dDIL after living together over 7yrs (2yrs on campus, x5yrs off on their own). Very sad. Also, given what I have witnessed in him - it worries me he has some faulty perceptions and preconceived mental strongholds about people, his snapping back and mood swings. Underlying MI is a concern or personality disordet (so rife on both sides of the family) i fear the worst is ahead of him, but hope not, really really hole not. But the baby dragon stress fireballs are not sustainable. I have presumed me, mother cops to worst of it and its not as bad as it seems, but maybe it is. I don't know how to tell him my concerns, but think he knows. He said he's gonna check in for counselling to cope. This loss of his long term mate could bump into deep ferlinga from losing his sister which could make it seem worse. He's so conscientious in everything he does, and has done well in most things, but the heart - it just makes me sad. Plus it worries me to be able to help, I want to but he needs distance and I think him going g under would finish me. Anyway, the brain is processing it all. Even some of my own reactions while he was here, cranky with myself. And did I say my hones ache. Blackdog tells me I can't do this anymore but I can see its a slump I just need to process and ride out.
Maybe we can help each other. Glad you're going out today. Thanks @Former-Member for the callout 🙂

Try not to over-think it all @Former-Member, and take it as it comes .... your son has managed himself pretty well so far, and will have seen the writing on the wall with his relationship before now .... so he will already have started processing this ....

And it's mature to be reaching for counselling help to get through it .... probably another lesson he has taken from you .... and there is likely stuff from his sister that is long overdue for processing .... guessing here that he's bottled it .... so the grief from the loss of this relationship may help draw out some of that without him going to pieces as you fear ....

There can be mi all over families without it appearing directly in all members .... try to harness that black dog with a good muzzle !! This may be something that brings you closer together, and please stop beating yourself up for not having "perfect" reactions .... whatever that is .... you are entitled to a range of emotions .... we all are ....

I Skyped with D1 and in-laws yesterday .... it became clear that new SIL is struggling with anxiety issues, after Ibpressed a wrong button in convo .... but how was Ivto know ? Nobody prepped me, and what I said wasn't out of line .... just clearly the wrong thing for him to hear at the moment .... or the right one ..... who can know ? Gotta just be who we are, and let things pan out as we do the best we can.

Live and hugs ..... ❤️

Thanks @Apeblossom, I'm actually relieved my son is letting in anything spiritual (re strange bird encounters and symbolism). Years ago it would frighten me as demonic but I trust the Holy Spirit is in it, to reach him, as he's lost faith in 'the church' I've been praying for this, didn't expect it through birds, but guess the Lord has used birds butterflies and nature to speak to my heart more than words lately. It is a spiritual growth, maturity, thanks for reminding me of that in my son Apple. Need to let go and trust the process more. Never stop praying g though.
Are you managing? With your son at his dads.

Incidently, do you ever get that overwhelming wave of anxiety, that e eryones angry with you and something terrible is gonna happen? Its trying to break through today. Is it paranoia? Or just anxiety? I'm just calling it blackdog. Its not possible that everyone on the forums hates me too (I hope lol)

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope, (had an overlap writing posts - sometimes Im slow at it. Will reply later xox

"Just do the best we can,
that's all we can do "

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