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Wow @PeppiPatty, what a bizarre way to treat a new mother !! What were they thinking ??

I don't know where that art school was, but you would expect they would credit on work already done. or defer the assessment for you ..... not make you come to an assessment straight after having a baby ..... that is so ridiculous .... and I would expect it's against the rules of the system they were teaching under anyway ....

Glad you survived it and continued on your art journey anyway ....

I found this today ..... applies to all artists :

Thought you might appreciate it 😊

Yeah @Faith-and-Hope

I've been itching to get online and answer you. Do not listen to those silly judges.....one day. I'lle find a photo of what I failed in and you and me can have a giggle about it. It wasnt a bad painting at all but it was just that awful person who was the head of the Department.

I want to know if @BlueBay is able to have a little chat to me about family? ARe you okay about that @BlueBay ?

@Former-Member I've been reading your lovely messages and feeling your energy in them. They have made me feeel a colour of my life right now. I can't explain it but I'm going through my own stuff that I would like to .....maybe relate to you all but I feel this soft blue in your home....CAn't explain it...like a soft green and soft blue and peace in my own life........

Ive been through my own struggles lately....it has been feral like....I so want to write a novel and Ive written the first chapter but now my Psychotherapist has asked me to write a paragraph on the main character.....how do I do that? I always just write just seeing what happenes.nit in a pattern of proper ways.

But, then, when I'm grouching insidemyself that this is so difficult.....I understood what splitting means.

That people with the origional wound.....the one of when they were very little and they were yelled and screamed at by the main caregivers: Keep on repeating their origional wound.....

by taking it out on their like.... their only daughter (thats me) and keep on trying to destroy them.......for instance my Mum to me.....

Hey @PeppiPatty

I'm here for a little while before dinner. How are you?

Hi @PeppiPatty

Yes, sometimes you get a teacher or Head of Department who are all about themselves .... it's unfortunate, but when epthere is art-song in your heart, you're gonna create anyway .... teachers or no teachers ... judges or no judges .... prizes or no prizes .... art is the prize 😊

So sad about your mum @PeppiPatty .... and very hard on you .... that sounds like it was really rough .... feeling for you ....

Im good @BlueBay

Im online now and again tonight....there is so much to do.....now my husband is eating lollies just before dinner

I'm working out this word...splitting...that this is what I think both our Mothers do it.....that their life is so awful that they believe that they are so wonderful and that they are so much better than we are.

Its not true.

Can I keep on working this out ??

Hi @PeppiPatty

That's interesting. I think that my mum has probably lead a miserable childhood, and her mum didn't get along with her at all. In fact her mum despised her and was jealous of her.

Now with me - I think my mum is jealous of me. She sees that I have gone away on holidays and used to always make some horrible remark back at me. She would always say things to make me feel guilty and bad. She never wanted me to live a happy life because I think she hasn't lived a happy life.

Splitting - yeah you could be right. My mum probably thinks that her life is so amazing but reality is she has no friends, no siblings that talk to her; no parents alive now; one out of 4 children talk to her; she has no hobbies, no nothing - what life is that? yet she thinks that she is always right and everyone else is so wrong.

Our mothers are not better than us. We are doing the best we can at the time. We are trying to live a life with love, peace and honesty. We don't want a life of lies, manipulation or control.

what do you think @PeppiPatty

Dearest @Faith-and-Hope

Yeah, I agree that my Mum is a nightmare but I have you people as my friends and .....your patient and everything for me !!

I used to not be able to do my artwork because my Mum sort of shoved it in my face and though she was telling everyone how good I was it was so nasty and aggressive I could'nt do it.

For instance, she wrote a well known article in America where she writes that I was the third best classical guitar player in Western Australia.

??????

What? YEah, I played classical guitar but she destroyed it by being aggressive. I was an allright guitar player....., not that great. It all came apart for me when her friend came all the way from America to meet me and tell me this. I was feeling overwhelmed for weeks after this.

But that happened years ago. I now have support in doing what I really want to do ....

That's great @PeppiPatty. When we can find fulfilment in other things it helps the healing process along so much. I think you must be feeling that.

🌷💕

Hey @PeppiPatty

I am going off for now for dinner but will be back after dinner.

Chat soon,.