Sleeping too much

@Former-Member I dont answer my home phone and they dont have my mobile number. This message was through facebook. I have deleted most of them, just need to block all of them.

@Former-Member Will chat more tomorrow and I will be more positive. Funny, well not really funny. I was remembering scriptures lately. My faith has almost been non existant lately, but its slowly coming back, then "BAM" someone comes along and tries to knock me over. I'll get back up again, I always do. NIght night to you and @Faith-and-Hope and everyone. xoxo

I understand @Former-Member

Take yourself and cry as long as you need to - and I hope this helps

I had nothing to do with my family for years at a time - I get it - my mother was so bitchy it was the only way to cope with it

But my father overcame it - I guess I was his favourite - different situation with him

People do pay a price for this kind of treatment of their children - hard to understand why

Sleep as well as possible -

Decadian

I'm really glad you didn't get hit @Decadian and I'm so glad lifeline help you.

Im sorry that I'm not communicating very well. It was just the events of 5 yrs ago that reshaped my life that has repressed thoughts and memories of my life before then. These events reshaped it in such a way I can never go back because I'll never be the same person. By writing this I guess I just realised why I've forgotten so much, maybe it's a protection thing to prevent me from idolising my old life. Anyway it's really complex and I guess I know it's a bit of a tangle to understand. Both my old psychologist and current therapist always describe my stuff as complex so I guess it is. The stuff that bought me down has been described by all the clinicians I've seen as the perfect storm for me.

I totally agree @Decadian that the things I am learning on here are invaluable.

headspace is a mental health organisation that caters for 12-25 year olds. I'm hoping this is not triggering for you @Decadian but it would have been a great place for your son as they cater for all youth mental health issues and it's free. I so wish that these services were available back when you were dealing with this. My son will see a GP and a therapist there.

Hoping that you continue to climb your mountain, take care💜😊

@Former-Member

I am so glad you are a get up again person. I have adopted the sane forum as family. My kids treated me as a nobody and were encouraged to do so. It is not right and I really do think a lot of it comes from the wider society.

I found my Chinese and Indian students and their families so much more respectful ... but each culture, family and person has different strengths. My son gradually realised I was being treated with respect by my studio families and slowly that changed his attitude and he realised I have some qualities.

@Decadian Glad you did not get hurt ... reversers should always look .. I will try and take a leaf out of your book .. and stand firm for what I know is right more ... take care ... I like your day to day stories ... and your reflections.

Dear @Former-Member and @Former-Member see how easily a thread can morph ... if everyone is happy about it .. its fine.

I just got invitation to sing back with old choir and they may throw a little mooolah in ... yay ... when i first sang with the conductor years ago .. it was a contract and paid gig ...

I wonder what will happen with the bully and me ... we will try and keep it no- nonsense, well mannered & polite.

Will I ever get them to honour the RUOK day???

Thanks @Former-Member

I think I am past my triggers atm - thanks for telling me about Head Space - it would have been great for my son - there was really nothing for him back in the 1980s - he did see a psychiatrist but he was 16 and under the Privacy Laws he had reached an age where his interviews were private and this did not help me help him

And I don't know whether he would have ever co-operated - he could not stand pressure of any kind - he was a very unhappy person - at least I know he is at peace now

I understand about your situation being complex - and whatever happened to re-shape your life is hard to explain - I think I am always doing this myself - I have been dxd as "emotionally fragile" it suits me fine because it really fits - and I have blank spaces myself - but that might have been the good times - or times when chaos wasn't happening - and yes - Life Line helps - and I think my story keeps moving - but it is what my case-worker called "a huge story"

Share what you are comfortable with - I think I understand that you are picking through things and keeping what works and trying to build your life up again - and this is like picking apart a tangle because there are memories you want to avoid until the time comes

Take your time

I had a long time trying to work my mother out - this was a puzzle of Victorian Drama unfolding - it seems to go on and on - but I had this feeling like a big knot in my chest - and it was my childhood terror of my mother - and I could not - I did not want to - know what that was - but it was enough to make me faint after her funeral - it was overwhelming - and I still cannot write it - I find it hard to tell anyone who could help - but I do

I have been incredibly lucky with the people in my life who have helped - sometimes briefly - others long-term - one psychologist for the rest of his life - that is really something

I wish you the best - and I am interested

Decadian

Hi @Appleblossom

i guess that I'm a bit ocd (not really) but I like things to have boxes, I guess on here I get caught up with wanting topics to be in boxes. Ironically today in therapy one of the things we discussed was psychological flexibility. Thinking this could be at play with this and I may need to let it go 😬

Its great to hear about the choir. Thinking you need to write a song about mental health for the choir to sing😜 I hope lol goes well re the bully. I have a feeling you've got this covered now💜😊

Hi @Appleblossom

I am glad @Former-Member is a get up again person - I am learning a lot here and feel this is my family too - we all have many different kinds of families and everyone cares so much about the others here too

It's good to know you enjoy my day-to-day stories - and reflections - my stories enhance my reflections - and so much a part of me that sharing them is natural

And yes - I was in the right with that car reversing like that - and not to argue the toss - after all - if I had been hit I would have been something they would have had to deal with in the courts - and no amount of yelling at me would change that -

My training with TS and my mother and my decisions of "non-argument" until it is worth it work for me. I do not have to worry about anything I said - things can get ugly if we try to argue the toss unless it is really worth the effort

EG

Have you heard the story of Fred O'Day

Who insisted on his right-of-way?

His mind was clear and his will was strong

But he's just as dead as if he was wrong.

[Anon]

All the best with the choir - good voice and good musical knowlegde - I hope there is moolah -

And also - all the best with the bully -

I hope things ROK -

Dec

@Former-Member

Thanks - you are most welcome to be part of my family - and I am happy to be part of yours

This is a special on-line family - people are welcome - how quickly we start to care for one another

Dec