Attachment weirdness, neediness, shame

@TheVorticon

Saw your worry room post and reread this thread.

I really really do not think your are a monster or disgusting or any of that negative stuff. I have only known you around the edges of the forum, but you have always seemed intelligent, sensitive and reflective to me. I was glad when you kept posting.

Like you were a good effect on the forum ... in general ...

I am deeply interested in the therapeutic process ... at some point ... it has to help heal you and make you/me/us feel better.

Labels and identity are sticking points for me ... not that I cant accept a label myself ... it simply is not the way the psych world of labels came to me ... I have researched the hell out of a lot of labels ... then tried to see if the wrongness ... about me ... might fit into every conceivable label ... I was thinkiing of buying a DSM ... but then realised by the time I could ... it would be updated ... am waiting for my NDIS plan ... to see if a doc will sign on the dotted line about whats wrong with me ...watching, waiting ... hmmmm ... done that a lot.

Just my way of saying ... hello ... and sending a "cooooeeee" your way.

Thanks @Appleblossom.

I can imagine being both interested and apprehensive to see what your NDIS plan dotted line might say. Hopefully if there is a label it would be a helpful one, but from what I've read about your experiences (that you've posted around the forum) it could also make sense to be wary of it. Probably most people don't really fit with the DSM diagnoses, in one way or another - just a mixture of traits that get rounded up into a limited quick reference point.

Thanks for sharing how you see me. I'm not sure I'm very 'good' on this forum. I may have emotionally burnt out from a different forum I used to be on, where I used to spend a lot more time writing supportive posts to people. I can't keep that up anymore and don't feel good about not being able to do that.

I dunno. Maybe I'll feel differently in the morning.

Hearing you about writing supportive posts. @TheVorticon

I believe it is a very nuanced situation.

I am working with the idea that it is best to present myself authentically and if I cannot write a supportive response I do not post. I did like it when they changed the "like" button to support, but at times it is not appropriate. So it will be good when they have tek capacity to allow a range of responses.

Dont worry too much about the good word. I get all freaked out by good and bad etc etc.

I sometimes think the issue is more about simple embodiment and the fact that we have many animal like functions and qualities and animals were often demonised ... or made out to be less than ... humankind ... which could be an insult to the animals ...

Still like having you around ... dont have to talk much ...

Cheers

Apple

@Appleblossom I saw your supports for my posts...

I have to go for day surgery in a couple of weeks....a bit scary I haven't experienced it before

Have you been through any surgery?

Yes @jamesle2015

Twice as a child (eye op and broken arm) and a few times as adult. It can be frightening but the nurses are often good at bedside manner. They try and get people home ASAP these days. Will you be alright at home after it?

@AppleblossomI should be alright....I will take the whole week off so no work..

it's nothing serious not cancer or anything but it's something that needs to be done ...it's above the neck but I can't reveal exactly ...

I been hospital before but when I was a kid and it was emergency ...

I had to stay for quite a while must have been a week at least...

I think it's easier if you go as a kid because at that age you don't have the

psychological baggage e.g. worrying about it for nothing and

you don't have to tell your managers and colleagues at work...

But in my case it was emergency so I didn't have time to worry as it was

an unexpected event....

But then it depends on what it's for..I imagine it would be hard if it was

serious and as a kid you have to keep going back for treatment....

I'm still working on the private health insurance..trying to get the specialist to fill out the form he's probably really busy at the moment I emailed the reception

@AppleblossomDo you remember the moments right before they gave you the

anaesthetic - what they said or how you felt?

@jamesle2015I remember they tried ot be kind.

Yes as an adult you know more of the risks too, so its not all useless baggage, but if it needs doing, then go with it, and trust they will do the right thing.

Glad you have some healing at home time. Hope you can set it up so food and all that is organised. Fill your fridge and freezer before you go or something.