why can't I cope longer?

Thanks guys. Overreaction... maybe I needed an excuse to have a good cry... Gonna have an afternoon sleep now, got a headache.

Hey @Former-Member A lot in your previous post but mainly feeling your frustration and sadness about old things returning. Sometimes we offend without meaning to as we can never fully understand where someone else is coming from. I don't think you have done anything wrong - it is simply a case of people being sensitive (and rightly so) in their own circumstances. All points of view, thoughts and experiences are valid - sometimes we inadvertedly offend or hurt others when what we are trying to do is support and help - that is ineviatble in a forum such as this where words carry so much and we cannot always hear exactly how hard things are behind each post.

You and I have been through a lot of the years - and yes I remember some of those previous 'conflicts' but you have always picked yourself up and re-engaged here - that says to me that you also need the support - and you have it. There is a place here for you (and everyone) and every single person deserves that support. I hope getting some of your own frustrations out here has helped - we are all dealing with a lot but together we all make this community work - and you are very much part of this community.

Much lve and hugs to you Hon - here with you and for you and I really value you and your input here

@Former-Member I’m just catching up with posts. Sorry things are so tough atm, things have a way of happening all at once, or not at all.

I hope today has some small good things, by small, I mean very small, the ones most might miss. Thinking of you and sending some of these 💜💕💜💕 and a morning, or afternoon ☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️

Thanks @Maggie, nice to see you. Think I did read somewhere that you're doing it tough too... hugzz
I do need to zip my humour a little with others, it's just a coping mechanisms when I can't get deep maybe.
Wanted to ring Suicide Callback last night but just not sure what to say to them, or if they'd take me seriously. Once I rang and the woman snapped at me because I wasn't "imminently suicidal" (couldn't tell her i had the means sitting in front of me - didn't want covert emergency services bashing in my door) Anyway, I might ring them today, confront a couple of those reasons why I want to die often...

Feeling less vulnerable today than last night.
Its really nice to find your posts this morning, made me tear up with relief. Thank you all.
Gotta go feed pup, maybe prioritise going for a walk for her today.
Love those hearts you do Maggie 💜💕💜💕💜
Love to you too @ Sherry, @ Zoe7, , @ outlander... coming back later... can only manage one reply just now ☕ Hugzz 💙

I know the humour and coping mechanisms @Former-Member Sometimes it’s covering the deep feels, the vulnerability, but they are all there.

A walk with Georgia, if you can might help. I’ve been in my cave this week, then a RA flare too painful to move. Hot shower this morning a blessing from the gods I tell you.

💜💕💜☕️☕️☕️

@Former-Member

@outlander, lovely images thank you. You're so good at that 💗💗💗💗
@Maggie, sorry about you RA... so painful. My OA is bad enough, can't imagine. Did the rain trigger it? Does mine.

@outlander @Maggie @Zoe7 @Former-Member (and whoever dares lol). How are Yas going?

6am and bright as a button here, so weird, Been a while since I felt this in the morning. 🤔 could it be as simple as the punet of blueberries I ate yesterday? Or the gardening? No, I think its spiritual warfare... someone's prayed for me and divine intervention has occurred. Even after a backlash for asking a friend to stop second guessing how I feel. Something like that (been taken the wrong way) would have me under the bus for days. Enough of that... I'm gonna get out of bed and play in the garden a while 🌄

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Out in the garden early morning sounds nice @Former-Member Heres a coffee to help get the engine started. ☕️☕️

Do you have any plans for today.? I’m heading into my bathroom for a shower, then it will be cleaning in there later, hopefully.

No birds singing here today, looking forward to the blackbirds morning chorus.