why can't I cope longer?

That seems ridiculous to have to pay for follow up visit for blood test results @Former-Member As far as I am concerned it should be counted as an extension of the primary visit and theredore not chargeable - she certainly seems to be about 'making money' rather than client care. I would be looking around for someone else as well - that is unacceptable!

I hear you about the 'very tired' feeling EOR - it is not a nice place to be sitting ...living each day just to get through is depressing in itself Hon. I know I am amongst others here that have been in that same situation - everything seems incredibly hard and you don't feel you have the energy to deal with it all. Your low iron levels would certainly be adding to those feelings so get that under control first and hopefully that gives you a bit more energy and a little more hope.

Right here with you Hon - listening, hearning and supporting you. Love that you are back and even more so love that you are here with us. It has been a really tough road for you the past couple of years and your trip last week would no doubt have brought up a lot of that hurt as well - go easy on yourself Hon, cuddle your fur baby and enjoy the new found company of your neighbours ...it is all baby steps but steps nonetheless ...the little things oount and can add up to better things. Day by day sweetheart - that is sometimes all we can do

Thanks @ Maggie @ Zoe7

Thanks for your kind thoughts.

Yes, it's disappointing re DRS here, I'm not sure what to do. Just go less I guess. But still, i worry the culture there may not be helpful for me... "money first" tends to come with other attitudes like discrimination, stigma, control, arrogance, favouritism, lack of compassion etc 😞 feeling quite hopeless about it (feeling I don't have that support), this is my very vulnerable heart & soul I'm laying out on a slab for them to walk over... scary on my own. Crying as I type / think about it. The reminder i dont really matter to anyone... i could pop off tomorrow.

But... there's another part of me saying "youre overthinking, it's not personal... its just business with them, you're one of many and DR's aren't perfect..."

Maybe...

today i spent the whole afternoon in bed, got up and pigged out on icecream, and went back in bed. Its like I'm watching myself, from an inside bubble, with no control of my arms and legs... bit disociative I guess. Red flag. Yet, this morning was fine... I cleaned out the fridge & rearranged the kitchen, fed pup.

Started raining this arvo. Oh, didn't feed the birds 😞

What have you two been up to?

It sounds like this dr situation has affected you a lot @Former-Member It can only take us the small things to get to us and not having that support that you so need and deserve is eating away at you. No wonder you spent most of the day in bed ...it is dehumanising to be made feel like you are just a money spinner and that really is not okay. Unfortunately there are some out there that just see it as a business and we as people come second - it is not the way it should be and I am so sorry that you are feeling like this. It is something you don't have to put up with though Hon - you can see someone else - but in saying that I know how hard that is to contemplate too - feels like a no win situation but don't let that play on your mind. I know you are relatively new to the area but are there other options of drs to see and preferably ones that bulk bill ...might be worth making some calls and finding that out Hon.

You have achieved some things today and you morning was okay so that is postiive. Hearing very much how hard the afternoon has been though so plenty of self care tonight.

I have had a busy day - went into school to work with the kids to build their birdhouses - got 6 of them done so 4 to do tomorrow. I have a parent helper coming in so that will help. She can work with a small group of kids while I take the rest of the class - will be a big help. Just watching tv now and resting - going to be an early night for me again - really tired and still not over this cold and chest infection. ABs seem to be working though so feeling better than I have been the last few days.

Thanks @ Zoe7 , it has. Spent a couple hours online last night looking for doctors, thinking of moving to England.

Actually, having a little cry atm as just got blasted on other thread for making light of something. Don't intend to hurt people... bit of a shock... beat myself up all day over it, lost a friend... Dajavu, ouch! fragile souls everywhere... its not good for me to be upset first thing by this.

Are you still on the mend? Did ya have to work today?. You're very dedicated going in to finish projects... especially when you're sick...

I'm still in bed 😞 restless night, so tired, and teary, but Betta take my tissue box to the sink, grab a cup of tea. and pick myself up. Beautiful fresh sunny morning after the rain. Little Georgia can't seem to get enough pats atm... little blessing she is, knows when I'm upset 💗

Hi @Former-Member ... I read your earlier post. So sorry about what happened, and I really hope you dont allow that to bring you down.

Not much to say really ... other than that I support you and wish you well. I am thinking of you today. Glad to hear that your little doggie companion is keeping a close eye on you and keeping you company. They do know ... dont they? Clever intuitive little beasts they are. And yeah ... the very act of patting a pet is calming and soothing. So .. the more pats the better, for you both.

Sherry 💕

@Former-Member

lovely flowers @outlander I saw U supporting the other side too.

@Sherry @Former-Member @ appreciate your post, doesn't help when mods delete me just after, gang up with them. TAWNY should never have come back. I might have to disappear again, I don't need it. I mean nobody harm. No fair 😭

I know you mean no harm @Former-Member and, incidentally, I dont believe you have caused any harm to anyone here. Quite the opposite in fact, because I see you being an asset around this place, in supporting many others.

Sending hugz and warm thoughts to you. And another pat to Little Georgia. And please take care.

Sherry 💕🤗

Hi @Former-Member
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