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Something’s not right

why can't I cope longer?

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why can't I cope longer?

Something's not right alright... Not sure why I'm falling to pieces atm and short of listening ears. Hope someone here can put up with me.

I'm walking in circles at home... well, not literally, just can't seem to stay focused or finish anything... if I can even remember what it is I got out of the chair to do half the time...

And snappy with people, everywhere, rude even (which is so out of character for me), the slightest hint of being 'had' or criticised or misunderstood... oh boy, I just can't keep it in atm. The internal pressure cooker wants to explode & I don't know how to stop it.

I'm at the crossroads in life, moving and deciding if to bother starting again, or just quit on life / die.

And what's scary about that lately, is the thought of it doesn't make me scared anymore - like its just what I'm supposed to do. Do you think God would factor in a premature departure (suicide / depression?) like he accepts other illnesses that separate spirit & body?

Its just those kinds of dark thoughts, but not like crisis level or that, just trying to find my way, or other alternatives, something to look fwd to.... to keep me here. I can't see a future worth living & don't feel the internal resources keep fighting.

Don't tell me to run off & get antidepressants... I'm on them. Or psychotherapy - that's in progress... I think maybe I just want to be heard. Not changedchanged (disapproved of)... just cared about... Is that too much to ask from life? Oh I know God loves me and all that, but I still live on earth...

Do you know what I'm trying to say?Does anyone ever feel this way? I just feel so totally spent - the end of the line... ... ...

My two church supports are away at the moment, not that I lean on them heavy, I'm just conscious there gone...

Ha! Horrible feeling like the only close people in ya life need to take a holiday away from you, well, maybe some of the others I notice they have to deal with more, none the less - feeling abandoned 😞

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Unknown userMember

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Thanks Em & An 💙

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Eve7Senior Contributor

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I'm glad you've decided to renew your lease @Former-Member . I like thinking that you're not too far away even though I don't know where you are exactly in Qld.

I'm sorry about your pain too, that's no good. I'm currently visiting family who have been through a devastating loss. However, with all the sadness they have experienced an overwhelming outpouring of God's love which has even strengthened my faith. They live in a country town and have been blessed by so many with meals, flowers, $$ and comfort. It doesn't take away the pain but they certainly know they are loved. It's good to see.

My only complaint is I am so cold here. Yesterday it rained and the wind was blowing all day. At least I have a warm bed and I brought winter pj's. It's not raining today but it's so cold but cousin has just turned on the heating which is ducted throughout the house so that will warm me up soon.

I hope your day is ok and it's not too cold where you are. Big hugs and lots of love to you. xox

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Unknown userMember

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Thanks @Eve7 & @Emelia8 's post on Morning thread. Good to see yas. I'm at dentist so be back later. Stay warm - heart & feet 🤗💙🌷

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Unknown userMember

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Well, took less than an hour - got two fillings. She didn't have to but but she did both teeth as next to each other. Interesting because the filling that fell out took 3 visits 2019 & he didn't once tend to the cavity in the adjoining tooth 😕 My fault I guess 'cause I went with the cheaper option - nsw gov dental training school 😕 Today's dentist thinks I'm Grinding teeth at night😟
Anyway, not feeling well, got a temp and tired. Betta call it a day. One last look at the Super bloodmoon and off to bed. Hope you're all ok? XOX

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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I hear you @Former-Member hugs and love x

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Unknown userMember

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Thanks @Anastasia 💙
Hope you boy is ok? R U?

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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Thank you @Former-Member no not really. He's self harmed today and I'm not doing very well tonight.

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Unknown userMember

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I'm sorry @ Anestasia@, I thought he was in hospital? 🤔 But guess it happens there too. I wish there was a vaccine for MI, for suffering.

As parents we feel so powerless in the face of this self destruction in our Kidz. Please find all the support you can for you, so you survive (don't go under) in these valleys (slumps / relapses), and there when he needs you later, it's a loss... So hard... Hugzz 💙

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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He is @Former-Member 😭

Thank you. I agree a vaccine would be incredible. MI sux, it's cruel and debilitating and destroys everything in its path if it's allowed to. Thank you for your kind words.

You take care and get some sleep, feel better tomorrow gorgeous xox

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Unknown userMember

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Oh dear, i am in so much emotional pain tonight I'm not sure if sustainable 😟 If ican standbit. What to do?. It hit me after talking with a friend this morning and got worse. She dumped a lot. Don't know how to tell her I can't take it. She was so strong for me when my girl died, I feel I owe her so trying so hard... She didn't even ask how I was after two fillings, abcess and on antibiotics... i felt browbeaten and irrelevant after talking with her, or triggered somehow... ?
Strong SI.
Feels like everyone in my life is screaming "why dont you just die!?!?!" But i I don't know why? Im trying so hard to be invisible, to not bother anyone. or burden the system...
People are hard, but so is isolation.
This is no way to live
Anybody listening?
What should I do.
Guessing could ring those 12yr old at Lifeline 😞
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