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Something’s not right

why can't I cope longer?

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why can't I cope longer?

Something's not right alright... Not sure why I'm falling to pieces atm and short of listening ears. Hope someone here can put up with me.

I'm walking in circles at home... well, not literally, just can't seem to stay focused or finish anything... if I can even remember what it is I got out of the chair to do half the time...

And snappy with people, everywhere, rude even (which is so out of character for me), the slightest hint of being 'had' or criticised or misunderstood... oh boy, I just can't keep it in atm. The internal pressure cooker wants to explode & I don't know how to stop it.

I'm at the crossroads in life, moving and deciding if to bother starting again, or just quit on life / die.

And what's scary about that lately, is the thought of it doesn't make me scared anymore - like its just what I'm supposed to do. Do you think God would factor in a premature departure (suicide / depression?) like he accepts other illnesses that separate spirit & body?

Its just those kinds of dark thoughts, but not like crisis level or that, just trying to find my way, or other alternatives, something to look fwd to.... to keep me here. I can't see a future worth living & don't feel the internal resources keep fighting.

Don't tell me to run off & get antidepressants... I'm on them. Or psychotherapy - that's in progress... I think maybe I just want to be heard. Not changedchanged (disapproved of)... just cared about... Is that too much to ask from life? Oh I know God loves me and all that, but I still live on earth...

Do you know what I'm trying to say?Does anyone ever feel this way? I just feel so totally spent - the end of the line... ... ...

My two church supports are away at the moment, not that I lean on them heavy, I'm just conscious there gone...

Ha! Horrible feeling like the only close people in ya life need to take a holiday away from you, well, maybe some of the others I notice they have to deal with more, none the less - feeling abandoned 😞

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Eve7Senior Contributor

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Sending loving thoughts to you today @Former-Member

💙🙏💙

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Emelia8Senior Contributor

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Dear @Former-Member

Just stopping by to say a quick hi to you. Still catching up on your news after being away for some 6 weeks or so. I am a bit confused about the 'former member' status, although I see that you are still here. 😕 I think you havent been posting much lately? I really hope you are settling well into your new home, and doing well. I would love to hear from you when the time is right for you. 💕

Emelia 🌸

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Unknown userMember

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@Emelia8,
hi
thanks
I don't know you
but thanks

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Unknown userMember

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thanks also to @Eve7 @Maggie @Zoe7 I don't feel I know anyone anymore

@Adge - trust your surgery went well and you're home with you pet family. Sorry to read about all the bird loss. Hopefully spring will bring some new babies along 🐦

My dad dodged another bullet and is home (from hospital).

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MaggieSenior Contributor

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@Former-Member I’m confused with posts that are saying , former member. It’s good to hear from you, but you sound a little down. Take care. 💕💕

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Emelia8Senior Contributor

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Actually @Former-Member ... we do know each other, but you know me under a different username. Loss of anonymity meant I had to close my former account some 6 weeks ago. I wanted to touch base with you because it seems that life is pretty difficult for you again right now. I was worried about you because firstly you have not been posting much lately, and secondly, when you do ... you are sounding very down. I care about you EOR.

Your Georgia and my little dog know each other too. I have had to change her name as well as mine ... she is now known as Abbie. And you and I used to do a little gardening together as well. Have you found the time to start a garden in your new home yet? All I have here at present is some herbs ... my parsley and my coriander is still going great guns. And I still have some flowers in pots on my deck which have been flowering continuously for about 4 months now.

I'm pleased to hear that your Dad has made a recovery and has been discharged from hospital. I am not long back from visiting my Dad too. He had another stroke and I made the long trek South to visit him a couple of weeks ago. He also is home again now, and recovering somewhat from the stroke. Thankfully it wasnt as bad as the major stroke he suffered around 2 years ago.

Emelia 🌸

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Emelia8Senior Contributor

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Have I said something wrong @sherpa09 or broken some guideline?

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Unknown userMember

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Hey there @Emelia8 Everything is within guidelines, thanks for flagging. Enjoy your day and re-connecting with the forum

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Unknown userMember

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@Emelia8 - I hear you 💙
Admin want me gone so trying to phase away. They don't care. And everyone is so caught up with their own problems. Lucky you, I'm not allowed to protect my identity like you have been afforded here, dehumanizing actually, I wish they were accountable. Anyway, I'm ok, just pathetically lonely. Coming to terms the dark people in my life, their fruit - their excrement emition choices... Im in the process of building permanent boundaries... Our pooches will keep us going... God and garden. Ive started later with - basil + parsley and roadside cuttings sprouting in standing pot. Glad your dad's on the mend too. Need to go have a cry now. Thank you 💙
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