having a bad morning

Morning @BlueBay @utopia @Former-Member .... ☕️😊

I have got a full-on week with two of my girls, but I'm doing top he occasional drop-in on line to say hello .... still early here ....

Thinking of you @BlueBay ..... enjoy being pampered at the hairdresser .... stay strong ....

Sounds industrious @utopia. I am in that state of doing a lot, but not much to show for it at the moment cos my environment is up-side-down at the moment .... and there is so much to do in buts and pieces across the next few days that I am only going to be able to put things back in order in increments, and on the run .... should start looking okay by Friday, which is when it needs to be ....

@Former-Member it's good to see you settling in .... I think I saw you wrote some poetry on your thread ? @BlueBay is one of our poets, did you know ? There is a poetry thread she has posted on quite a lot.

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Hi @BlueBay

This is a hard time for you - maybe the feelings of something terrible happening to your MIL are spot on - her time might be nearly up - but this is not necessarily a bad thing - her suffering will be over and the pain she has from her fractures must be confusing for her -

As @Former-Member said - having someone with dementia is a double loss - we all have to leave - and yet having a loved one in a dazed state is also hard - I had this with my mother - she was alive and I could recoginise the person in the body - but she changed so much after my father died

It's important for your husband to check that his mother is having pain-management at this time - suggest to him that it is the best thing for him to do and that is to visit at different times to make sure she is okay - but if he is not up to it - then that's the truth of the mattter - this is a nightmare of a time for him too

What else to say - yes - one day we are all going to die - but until that day we are busy living - but dementia takes that away and life can be very hard -

Thinking of you

Decadian

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Thanks @Faith-and-Hope. No, I wasnt aware that @BlueBay did poetry, or if I was, I sadly forgot.

Yes I did post a poem I wrote a couple of nights ago to my thread yesterday. I would definitely not consider myself to be a poet by any means. I've really only just started to do some in fact in the past couple of months. But I do find it a great way of expressing myself, and it can be quite liberating because it is an outlet for emotions that otherwise may not get expressed. However I have found that I only have the inclination to write when I am feeling down, sad, afraid, etc. I guess I am not a happy poet, only a sad one.

I will look for the poetry thread that @BlueBay started. What section would it be under?

Thanks .............

Thank you @Decadian xxxooo

Not feeling too great this morning 😞

I didn't get to sleep until about 11pm (which is very late for me) and didn't sleep very well, kept waking up at least 3 times. Now I feel like I could just cry, i think when i am so tired every night the same thing, I then get so emotional. I keep thinking it's these AD that my psych prescribed a few weeks ago because my sleeping has been affected severely since then. But try telling him that, in one ear and out the other.

Yesterday I was telling the pharmacist and my friend at work about MIL and how she has fractured 4 ribs and is not very good. My friend said to me 'you are going to be in for a really tough time'. That's not what i wanted to hear so i broke down at work. My emotions are so close to the surface that i just broke down.

At least the sun is out, hoping today is going to be a nice day at work. Getting all our xmas stock out and some of it looks nice. We don't have a say with the gifts, we just get what is sent to us. Busy times ahead.

Better go and get ready, i so wish i could just stay in bed.