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having a bad morning

having a bad morning

I am feeling that my life at the moment is crap. I am so depressed and find that more so in the mornings. I hate myself so much, the way I feel, the way I act and behave. I know people will say to me 'oh just get over it' or 'you're not trying hard enough' - well to those people who say that: Do you have a mental illness; do you know what it's like to have depression and feel so dark that you cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel; do you self harm to get rid of your emotions and to feel the pain; or do you think about suicide because it's all too much and you can't handle the pain anymore - NO. So don't tell me to just 'move on' or 'stop being too sensitive'.

I am not having a good morning this morning; tears are flowing as i am typing. And I have to get ready for work; damn work. Sometimes I wonder if life is worth living and why?

I really don't know how i am going go today at work; I feel so depressed. 😞

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Hi @BlueBay, good on you for doing housework, I'm so impressed. Too ashamed to say where I'm at today lol, Ybut ou have inspired me. Thank you 🙂

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Hi @BlueBay

Good to hear you have been keeping busy today and I am glad to read you fell asleep last nite.

I hope you can lean on each other through this tough time.

Thinking of you

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Hello @Decadian, @BlueBay

I have been sooo thinking of you both today xx'

sending you all my love and hugs

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Thank you so much @Shaz51 xxxooo

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Hello @BlueBay. Sorry I wasn't here today - remembering the past and trying to stop my mind from wandering in certain areas. Seriously would love to be able to stop my thoughts that have been running rampant these past few weeks. Normal coping techniques not working for me on this issue & my psychologist just smiles and says "sit with it".
Sorry to hear they found a fracture in MIL's back. Same thing happened to my Gran. She complained for weeks that her back hurt. It wasn't until we intervened - that the nursing home and doctor did the xray and discovered 2 small fractures.
I'm sending you all healing love.
Glad your day has been busy. Can't wait to see the photos of the baby blanket. Who's it for?

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Morning @BlueBay. I hope you slept well. What are your plans for the day - if any?
I'm trying to get my boy out of bed and ready for school. He leaves school early today with the school band and won't get back to school until 9pm.
Then Wednesday he has to be at school early - because it's school camp.
So I'll be sorting out his camp clothes and packing his bags.

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Hi @utopia

I've got another busy day - so much for day's off!!!!

I am getting my hair coloured this morning, psych session at 2pm then doctor's at 3pm.

I have a terrible headache again, i think it could be stress due to being anxious about seeing psych. Part of me is angry because he never spoke to me last week. But i will talk to him about this and let him know how i was and am feeling.

I am almost finished my blanket. Once i finish that i think i will knit a baby bonnet and booties. These are for a co-worker who is having her first baby. And because I enjoy knitting i thought i would do something for her and it keeps me focussed and helps me calm down. I was also thinking last night, if i knit the bonet and it's easy i may knit some for the local hospital or even the childdren's hospital. i know a customer of ours at the shop knits bag loads of bonnets and blankets and then takes them to the children's hospital in Melbourne. Maybe i could do that. I don't know, the thing is with me is that i want to start all these proljects but then give up.

Like the gym - I went once a few weeks ago, it was good. But then last week i had a migraine and cancelled and now can't get in for another few weeks. I feel like a failure because i didn't succeed in what i wanted to do. And then when i am like this all my plans go out the door.

Oh, i remember trying to wake up my kids for school. my daughter was always good in getting but the boys, no. How long is your son away? It's going to be a long day for him and you. I can't remember do you have only once child??

I read somewhere else on here that you did so much work at your place, cleaning, mowing and washing down walls. That is so good, my place needs a good clean as well. But sometimes trying to get hubby to do things is like taking a child to the dentist!!!

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Hi @BlueBay. Just very quickly wanted to let you know that I will be thinking of you today. Getting your hair done sounds like a good thing, but the psych and GP not so good.

Really sorry to hear of the rib and back fractures for your poor dear MIL. At least she is where they can do all they can for her and hopefully they are able to keep her relatively pain free with medication and good care. It is still a very distressing time for her family though, and I feel for you. Dementia is a very cruel ailment for everyone to go through, both the patient of course along with everything else. And it also means that often other issues are not picked up, at least they are aware of your MILs fractures and they can medicate as necessary.

Its great that you are setting goals for yourself, like the gym. Dont be too hard on yourself if you are unable to accomplish those goals for whatever reason. Set achievable goals, dont overload yourself. Make sure that you can achieve what you set out to do, and then you will be left with a sense of having achieved. And thats important.

I hope today goes well for you at the psych. Give him an earfull about not talking to you last week! Get it off your chest, let the anger out. He will understand, thats his job.

Good luck.

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Thanks @Former-Member I will let you know how i go later on today.

Hope you have a nice day 🙂

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@BlueBay. I'm single so have to do the work myself. Trying to keep busy during my days. Takes my mind off things.
Yes only the one child. He will have a long day. I'm going to clean my kitchen. Maybe pull everything out of the pantry and wipe it all down and check used by dates. Been years since I've done this.
Deep breaths and then calming slow breaths for you this afternoon. Helps think clearer and feel calmer - before yiur psych appointment.
Good on you for getting your hair colored. I'm going naturally grey. Grey almost at ear level. The rest if my hair is old dyed hair.
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