having a bad morning

Hi @BlueBay

I have read your earlier posts - that your psyche can't help you anymore - I guess he is out of his depth - and that's no one's fault - it happens

Even though I haven't been posting I have been reading and I thought - "What the ......... - like what do I say to you about that?" Turns out you are on the waiting list to see a female therapist - if I had thought about it enough I would have thought of that - a woman will understand the events in your life that cause you so much sorrow and make your life hard to live.

Not that a man can't - but women and men vary greatly in their thoughts and feelings and how we approach life - I am sure many people understand that - I had a great therapist back in the 80s and 90s- he was a man and we worked well together - but he told me and asked me what is was about certain dates and anniversaries that caused so much anguish - I could not explain - and even to this day I don't know why we accumulate dates and anniversaries - we remember birthdays too -

So right now I am taking a break between therapists - and not in a hurry to start again - and this week I have not kept my thoughts in a straight line - so I have not been much use - but I did read that your psyche was angry that you went to hospital and that the CAT team was onto your case - and I tried to think up something about that - it felt as I had watched you walk into a door way and the was a door closed and no one noticed - and that was your niece's anniversary

A break and a change of therapists will be good - and maybe you will be less stirred up - I did read about your having a life-coach or something like that - no doubt I will come across that in time

You have been through the mill - with your nose to the grindstone and your back to the wall etc - and your psyche got frustrated - and it hurts when that happens - it has happened in my life - I had people burn out helping me with my son - and as a private English tutor there were students I had to give up on - I refused to take good money from the parents of children who were not co-operating

So all of us do what we can do - and things change

And my gut feeling this is a good thing

Thinking of you

Decadian

@utopia Sounds like your boy is easy pleased and likes to be at home.

I'll see how I feel tomorrow before I decide what to do. We could see another movie, I guess. We went and saw Bridget Jones' Baby this week. Movies are cheap in our town, thank goodness. $20 a movies at the other place nearby. I think $20 is way to much for a movie, especially when we can watch movies on our internet. But I don't mind paying $9 a movie. It gets us out of the house. We went to a museum village recently, had a great day. Local art gallery, not much there at all. Maybe ten pin bowling, for something different. I should get the roller blades out one day and see how I go on them, haha! I prefer ice skating though. I need to get ready for bed. I'll probably get back on here later though.

Any plans for your weekend? I hope you're feeling better. You sounded quite unwell this week.

You're right @BlueBay

Abandonment is a very hard thing to deal with - and you have been abondoned by your parents - and like me - you are working through the dark time of your life without their support - ah sheesh

But rather - after all the shouting and the tumult dies there will be peace - you can make a new start and so many other people have chimed in here

@utopia@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope@TAB to name a few - moving on - your parents abandoned you for their own reasons and they have most likely never told you why - but your psyche has told you he can't deal with some of your issues - and that's where you need help

Actually - I sacked a psychiatrist once - I had the feeling this guy was not right for me - I had a chat with another psychiatrist at the same hospital - same practice - and the new guy was great for me

And on reflection - it was a new start in my therapy then - and I did not see that psychiatrist for long - my life changed and things were quite different

I hope you get a really great boost in your morale from the this change - your later posts seem to indicate that

Lots of hugs though

Decadian