having a bad morning

Hi @BlueBay

I'm so glad they have employed someone who can do the job - at least the place will hold together when you go to hospital - that will happen - though it's been weeks

About someone working late on your day off - or when you are on leave - they can hire someone part-time to fill in - or the manager can extend themselves - not your problem

I think I have missed something on the last page - I will have to get back to you about that one

Decadian

@BlueBay

This is a rotten thing to have happened - and there isn't anything you can do about it - right now - but you can speak to the sister who you can talk to - after you have had yourself unscrewed

And from the outside it really does seem that you have things going wrong right left and centre - and this is always hard

About your Dad and whether or not you can see him again - ah sheesh - I know what they can do to you - but before this your father has made a choice to stick with your mother and his reason might be that he wants/needs peace at any price

But he has chosen to stay with your mother on this -

My father took a stand - omstars - 20 years ago now - that he wanted me in the family - and mum and other people had to suck it up until he died - and the whole thing collapsed like the towers fo 9/11 -

But he chose to stay with my mother for so many years and your Dad has chosed that too

And it's just screaming out ROTTEN ROTTEN ROTTEN

But it's not the time to deal with it now - after you have had your trip into hospital - where you will have the chance to work on all of this - and maybe tell your mother right into her face that you want to see your father and it's your right to find out if he wants this situation - or not

People have free will - we all do - and unfortunately we have to put up with that - but we have our free will too - even God has to put up with our free will

Decadian [hugs]

Well I had my meeting with my supervisor this morning. We talked about some work stuff, xmas stock for the pharmacy and hours.

He then said reg. my letter to him about a pay increase. He said he has looked into it and will give me a slight pay increase $1.50 pr hour extra. He then said I need to not do all the jobs myself and delegate more so the work is spread evenly across all girls.

It was a good meeting, I achieved my pay increase, it's not a lot but it's better than nothing.

Well done @BlueBay! That's great

Hi @Shimmer

Even though the meeting was a good result - why am I feeling so crap, so depressed and not happy at all?

I don't understand. It was hard for me to write a letter asking for a pay increase and yet I am so down, I don't feel like it's an achievement. So confusing with my emotions. very mixed 😞

I agree with @utopia

Good job @BlueBay ❣

Ive had a shit day depressed cold and shitty.

just wanted to disappear and never be found.

i hate everything, my life, myself, my work, etc etc etc.

people arte noticing at work i am not the same, well i can't f..... help it if i am depressed and stressed

sick of this

what is wrong with me; seriously

what the hell is wrong with me.

i so wish i wasn't here anymore;

there is no point in even trying anymore

how many times do i have to keep going

i'm tired, i miss my son