Need time to myself

Hi @BlueBay,

Sorry to hear you are feeling so overwhelmed today. What sorts of things do you normally do when you feel this way? Is there anything that helps? Sometimes just being able to talk about how you are feeling can be effective.

Sending virtual hugs your way

Rockpool

**hugs**

Hi @BlueBay

I'm so sorry to read you haven't been feeling very good. It seems like you have made exceptional progress with your treating team though. What a huge step you have taken being so open with them. I hope that openness continues to benefit you.

You mentioned last night that you would call your psyc today and let them know about your negative thoughts. Have you done that yet?

Thinking of you,

Nik

I was not well again last night. I think this depression, emotional feeling I am having at the moment is affecting muy physical health. I just feel like I want to stop everything, my life, my world.

But ....... today is another day and I have to fight it; as much as I feel I can't I just have to. Tears are flowing and I just want to be cared for like a child. I so miss my dad.

I hope I can have a chat with my psych today. Wish i could take today off work but i can't we are already short staffed. So many mixed emotions right now - i just have to keep going; there is no other way is there??

Wish i could stop crying.

Hi @BlueBay

I'm really to hear you had a tough night. You do an amazing job at fighting these lows and an amazingly resilient attitude.

You mentioned you have called Lifeline before, are there any other strategies you find helpful to get you through these nights?

I'm not sure if you've seen it before, but there's a great discussion called Coping Box, which was started by @Crazy_Bug_Lady. It's a thread full of strategies and distractions people use when they feel like they aren't coping. The idea is that all the strategies and distractions are in one place and it's easy to refer to when the low moods hit.

Perhaps you might get some ideas or could add your own?

I hope your psych is helpful today - he/she sounds very responsive. And I hope work provides some distraction too.

We're here if you need us today.

Hello @BlueBay

I have been curling up in bed a bit which is my way of recovering and facing the next day or task.

I think you are amazing: working, looking after family, MIL. Glad you have good therapists working with you. Hang in there.

Hi @Former-Member@NikNik@Appleblossom@GothMum

Thanks all for your posts and support. My psych did call me back and I told him i am not good. He asked me what do I want him to do and I told him I need to go back to hospital and he said why. I told him I need time alone to think, to let my body rest and get my thoughts together. He said i can go in but for only a week.

I have to let him know by next Tuesday if I change my mind, otherwise I will go in next Thursday. After speaking with him (on my lunch break) I broke down and couldn't stop crying. A close friend who works with me asked how I was and I told her that i may be going back to hspital and that i want everything to end incl. my life. She was upset and said pls don't do anything, i promised her i wouldn't because i love my kids far too much. She said to me she wished she could take all this pain away from me and that she understands what it's like as she has suffered depression before.

Tonight I am home and feel exhausted.