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It's all a joke

Unknown userMember19 July 2018, 6:51 pm AEST

It's all a joke

It's all a fing joke.

None of this is real.

None of us are real.

We're just pond scum, floating on the sea of life.

We're cast out, not whole and never to be real.

F it all.

We're just broken pieces of crap. No one regards us as worthwhile objects of consideration, let alone even human. We're shit. Vile, scummy, shit.

Society thinks were not worth anything, even the treatment providers 'helping' us don't regard us as human. We're patients, not like them at all. Not good enough, clean enough, articulate enough.

We never will be.

So why bother.

Why even do this shit?

Why pretend? Why try?

F it all.

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 11:11 pm AEST

Re: It's all a joke

Thank you for chatting to me @outlander.
The thing is it’s me. I’m scum.
All the studies show that kids of people with severe mi have really bad outcomes. If I had a kid I would screw it up cause I’m so screwed up. So I’m not really allowed to have children if you see my meaning. And I don’t think I could handle the pain of being close to someone without children/incentive to do so.
I’m just worthless crap. But I’m too scared to cs. I just want to be gone and be part of the bush.

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outlanderSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:16 pm AEST

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@Former-Member
i can see where your coming from, but i still dont think your scum. i think your MI is causing you alot of grief and dont really know what to do with it.
I dont think ill ever have kids either, for the same fears and possibly physically either.
Mental health really sucks! they need to find a cure somehow

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 11:20 pm AEST

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Thanks @outlander.
I think I might play a computer game till I feel tired. Problem is I just can’t get this image of being part of the land out of my head.
I do hope when the time comes that it’s peaceful. I’m not religious and I don’t believe in god, but I like the idea of being at peace.

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TeejSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:21 pm AEST

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Hey @Former-Member. There are lots of things that define us. Having children is just a small part. Having a relationship doesn’t have to be about kids. It can be a companionship type of relationship as well that can be fulfilling. If I ever go down that path of getting close to anyone again I think that’s the kind of relationship I’d be having. I’ve been trashed by relationships. I’m too messed up for one now too.

So you are not alone. I know I have kids but it’s not everything and often not enough to keep me here.

Go gently on you. I know there’s lots of reasons for you to hang around above the earth for longer 😘

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 11:23 pm AEST

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Thanks @Teej, I just really struggle sometimes.
Sometimes it’s just really hard.

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outlanderSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:23 pm AEST

Re: It's all a joke

@Former-Member maybe you could try meditating out in the fresh air under a tree or somewhere scenic. it might help with those feelings and allow you to just breathe and be at peace for a few minutes

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 11:24 pm AEST

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Hi @ham_solo,
Thanks for the thoughts, hope you are well.
I follow a lot of what you and @outlander write and I’m happy to see things looking up for you.

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TeejSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:24 pm AEST

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I know @Former-Member, I know. It sucks. Let’s just hope it gets better at some point and plod along until it does. 💜🤗

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 11:26 pm AEST

Re: It's all a joke

Plod.

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TeejSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:28 pm AEST

Re: It's all a joke

Lol like the dinosaurs.......hmmm they’re extinct so maybe plodding isn’t ideal. How about we scrape through the best way we can then.......although scraping sounds painful.......hmmmm 🤔 @Former-Member

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