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It's all a joke

Unknown userMember19 July 2018, 6:51 pm AEST

It's all a joke

It's all a fing joke.

None of this is real.

None of us are real.

We're just pond scum, floating on the sea of life.

We're cast out, not whole and never to be real.

F it all.

We're just broken pieces of crap. No one regards us as worthwhile objects of consideration, let alone even human. We're shit. Vile, scummy, shit.

Society thinks were not worth anything, even the treatment providers 'helping' us don't regard us as human. We're patients, not like them at all. Not good enough, clean enough, articulate enough.

We never will be.

So why bother.

Why even do this shit?

Why pretend? Why try?

F it all.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor20 July 2018, 9:43 am AEST

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@TAB awww .... yes daddy long legs are cute 🙂 but you can do without a blackwidow like spider which consumes her babies. Remember the song 'Red back on the toilet seat'? well last year I was cleaning our toilet and sure enough there was a female redback .... I think she got vaccuumed up .... too long ago.

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TABSenior Contributor20 July 2018, 10:00 am AEST

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Yeah Slim Dusty @Bunniekins lol yeah didn’t mind pidys at first then wondered why they aren’t outside feeding birds etc lol un just did tax getting pidly return so no mbike lol cos earnt same in last 2.5mths as had in rest of year ugh

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 10:40 pm AEST

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Why is it the knowledge that I’ll never have a relationship and I’ll never have kids that gives me no reason to live.

Whats the point if I can’t have relationships with other people.

Yet nothing scares me more.

Being close to anyone is the scariest experience I could ever imagine.

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 10:43 pm AEST

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I was thinking today how nice it would be to have my ashes spread over a piece of bush land.

Being one with the land.

Gosh it’s such a peaceful and fulfilling thought. To not be me anymore and to be a part of the bush. Just a bit of soil, or tree, or even a wombat!

I think that’s what I would like.

When the time comes.

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outlanderSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 10:51 pm AEST

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@Former-Member you sound like your hurting quite alot
Are you safe?

Is there a reason you cant have a relationship? you of course dont have to tell me but im just trying to understand what your going through

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 10:55 pm AEST

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I just can’t @outlander.
Too scary. Too painful. Too close.
Ouch.
I can’t do the close relationships thing. It causes me physical pain to be emotionally or physically close to someone. Don’t know why.
But it’s the scariest most painful thing I could imagine.

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outlanderSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 10:59 pm AEST

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relationships are pretty scary @Former-Member have you been able to discuss with anyone why you get these feelings at all?

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Unknown userMember24 July 2018, 11:01 pm AEST

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Kinda, I’m in therapy atm. And I’ve told him that’s what I want. But I’m too scared to talk about it. But I don’t see it ever happening and to be honest I’m not sure how easy it would be for me to biologically have children too.
I just don’t see the point. Why not just end it all now. Why parade my worthless failure of a carcass around.

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outlanderSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:07 pm AEST

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i dont think your worthless @Former-Member
There are other ways to have kids too. perhaps that option is worth exploring and might make you feel abit more comfortable in a relationship?

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MDTSenior Contributor24 July 2018, 11:11 pm AEST

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Hey @Former-Member
I haven't seen you for a while.
I can see you are in a bit of strife atm but just saying I'm sitting here with you. Not sure what I can say or do to help sadly.

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