Living with Ourselves

Hi @Sophia1 A blank page showed up in my mail box.. 3 possibilities.. 1.. Sophia's plane taxing

on run way and she avoiding the paparazzi.. 2.. Someone spilled a cup of coffee in the computor

at Sane HQ... Steam, sparks, and panicked chaos. 3.. I'm imagining the whole thing.. wake up tonys .. wake up.

OK Well, nothing ventured, nothing gained... tonys mb 1

Hello @tonys

Many moons have passed since I was here.

I have thought of you and checked on you.

You are well settled and cared about. You have found your circle of friends. I am pleased that you are more at ease on the forums now. You have regular ongoing connection.

What is this about hospital and tubes tied to the bed? What has happened?

Youalso wrote that you rock from side to side. I rocked myself to sleep every night until I was married! When I have bad nights my husband tells me that I rock.

I had no idea that there was a connection with autism. I thought that it was feeling unloved.

Please look after you. Behave and get better at a pace advised.

I logged on to stop my notifications as I will not be accessing emails whilst away.

It feels so very strange being here. I feel like a stranger on the outside looking in.Leave a quick note when you are on the mend. If not before I go will find on my return. ProbBly observing still.

I really needed the break and much is still going on. Can’t wait to escape for a while now.
Always remembered for your friendship.

Sophia

Thankyou @Eve7

for such kind words that I surprised to receive. Unaware that you had noticed my posts.

Then again I have been unaware of so much for quite some time.

Lovely to find

Sophia

Hello @Oaktree

Thankyou for all of the messages and tags that you have left for me.

Very supportive.

Enjoy t sat gardening

Sophia

Hello @Jacques

So sorry to hear about your partner.
A very harrowing time for you all.
Thank goodness she has improved and is still being monitored in the future.

Please look after yourselves.

Sophia

I have been very unwell and need to put myself first which is a very hard concept for me.Doctor’s orders.

This holiday is going to tak me away from everything g for the first time I my life and I am going to be me and enjoy history culture and so much more just my husband and I together. We both really need his for our health and our life.

Hey there mate.. Well trust me I'm making steam, engine will soon shunt into motion again.

Had re constructive surgery. No big thing, BUT what about you. . .! Mate , cant you and uncle

tonys have a good old chat and you tell me all about what happening. I told you once ,you could rob the federal reserve and you would still be my best mate. now I think about it , an even better mate..

Anyway us night rockers , we gotta stick together mate. Hey ..! theres a name for a thread.

The Night rockers .. OoooooO.. Maybe pull me aside one day and we will share a bottle n a yarn.

OK Sophia. Well The lines on that long lonely highway move from side to side as your pale beams,

probe the fog. One day, for no reason at all, You'll just stop searching, and book a room at the hotel

acceptance. Yes we, your friends are all in there waiting for you. Your the story. We are just waiting to fulfil our purpose in it. true to the end we will wait.. tonys moon base 1

hi @Sophia1

thank you for the kind words, my partner is doing ok, still not sure what is causing the chest pain but she is being monitored.

im so so happy for you and hubby, i hope you have the most amazing time. my thoughts and well wishes are with you. i know you need this.

Hello and thank you for your response @tonys

I actually had tears reading through your kind hearted special Tonys wording.

Time for a chat one day sounds wonderful. Bring your musical instruments. I hope that Bookkeeper will join us also. We can cook over the fire and share an enjoyable drink together as we eat.

Share the table, the food, the talk and the listening.

My wretched post concussion is busy stirring up my anxiety and menacing my depression.

I have been able to keep the depression at bay for some time and then last year well it's all written on here somewhere.

I am very tired, confused, weary and am dragging myself everywhere.

I am literally hanging out to get on that plane and then sink into my seat and just bring it all on.

I cannot believe it is happening

I should be so excited. This I only have random moments experiencing. This is all wrong.

So I am not expecting anything from myself except to make sure that we get on that plane.

Life will still continue to do it's thing everywhere. So be it for now.

Will seek you out on my return and my head usually arrives at a different time to the rest of me when I have transversed the two hemispheres.

We shall connect again.

You look after you and Bookkeeper.

Hug Sophia the calf and her siblings and all of the other farm animals.

You will also be settled with your cousin by then closer to the sea I think?

So you have a Sea change coming up.

Do take care of Tonys as well as taking care of everyone else. Don't become a Sophia1

Big hug

Hello @Jacques

Lovely to hear from you in reply to my post to you.

It is hard when our loved ones have health issues.

Good that she is being monitored for everyone.

Take care of you also as I know that you still look after your mum and Aunt at times also.

Am off soon as you know

It will probably be a couple of months.

Probably won't be able to find anything when I return here.

I feel as though I don't belong anymore already.

I will be a silent observer for a while I think.

Test the waters.

Big hug

Sophia 1