Living with Ourselves

Photo incoming @tonys ⬇️

warm sun pours over me.

Soleil all over you

🌲🙂

@maddison Hello My lovely friend. My goodness, That puts the harbour bridge fireworks to shame. Your gorgeous cat looks very much like my black and white one, very contented. I hope you are well and getting out and about to show that lovely hair off.

Had a busy week and some good news. From time to time i have had had to give statements in support of other peoples claims, in relation to some of the things that i mentioned in the last couple of letters,.. I've never pursued a claim my self because of the turmoil it creates in my head.. Well the solicitors, now being made aware of my recent L 2 autism diagnosis, have decided to spare me the ordeal. I can't tell you the wave of relief , although i do feel for the other victims my statements may have helped.. The dark cloud has definitely lifted. .... ... Thankyou for your part in that.

Anyway, I have been getting all my medical stuff sorted that i put of for years. The heart of the city has so much to offer, Flavour , colour, culture,.... I don't blame doctors for not wanting to move to the country..

Still have to read the rest of my mail, accumulate my thoughts and make a plan for heading back to the farm, Life really is an ocean, peaks and troughs.... each has something to offer... and i guess we should be grateful for all that lies between.

Heart felt hugs and and a sprinkle of stardust to you my friend. tonys moonbase one

@maddison forgot to say, was it my imagination or was that a 'badly drawn boy' lyric you snuck in there. Nice... love your work mate. Thinking of you ..tonys mb1

Hi @tonys hope things are well for you. Thanks for the hair compliments! I really like the pinkish colour it looks in the sunlight. It will all wash out sooner or later & then I will be back to regular unknown colour. It's fun to have a change.

I'm so happy to read your good news. I could feel the happiness & relief as I read each word. It made me happy too. It's a little difficult for me to comment on - because it's not my business, & I am completely ignorant to the life you have lived. However, when you mentioned that you felt sympathy or empathy for future victims, I think I could totally understand where you are coming from. In my opinion, that is a very normal reaction - I would imagine that I would feel the same. I think it really shows what an amazing big heart you have❤️ I hope I have said all of that correctly - if I were you, I might tape that box up now, ......place it on a wooden raft ..& let it drift out to the ocean.....& Let it go❤️

Thankyou for choosing to share your good news with me.. Another gift! You give me so many.

That is funny that you have a similar looking cat to me! She is my middle cat. It's hard to describe her personality. I think she might consider herself to be more human than my other cats (who seem to realise they are cats) None of my cats really like cuddles too much. Pat's & scratches. It sux for me. I have to force cuddle them! Previously, I had a cat, Pandora - she was a rescue. She was the most cuddliest creature I could ask for. I would carry her around like a baby. It broke my heart when she passed away 3 years ago. Animals are very special creatures. They cannot be replaced.

Sorry, I didn't intend for this letter to be sad... My cats are my children & they mean lots me.

Yes tonys, peaks & troughs & inbetweens.

Maybe they are not all as distinct as it might appear.

What do I know? I'm a middle aged lady. Typing a letter on her phone to a person she doesn't know, while eating a microwave meal & crying about her cats.

Then again, maybe that's where genius is born?

Sending a world of hugs your way.. Thinking of you xx

Hi @maddison,

The photo of your cat is an identical twin of a cat I had about 25 years ago. I can't believe the likeness! My cat's name was Ruffles (because of the white under his neck). He was very aloof, had a high opinion of himself and didn't really like me but I adored him!

Hugs,

FloatingFeather

@maddison Hi maddison...... Just finished a kite with a little poem for you, hope it lands..... was about to bail, then found this one. How is your day mate... Cats... my dogs love me,.... my cats tolerate me. But i do have great news from my book keeper.. one more calf. Might be the last for the season... You're my most loyal friend so Im calling it Maddy. Yep , now theres a maddison and a wobbly maddy to share the paddock.. Apparently the back packers have cleaned up my house... If you knew how i lived , you would know what a major achievement that is. and at great risk to their health and safety. mmmm, did i remember to put my shotty away.. opps.

Microwave dinners.. ? .. I ain't saying a word.... . . . I just scoffed down a hot dog , one of life's great mysteries,..... and risks!!! And that just the tomato sauce, I haven't event started one the sausage yet.. But, its the cornerstone of every buskers nutritious breakfast..

I hope you get out for a long walk today and let some more of that 'warm sunshine pour over you'... and that lovely hair. If you walked passed me i know i would turn around and drink in the view... Stay safe and be nice to yourself. Sleep well knowing there is not a moment when some one is not thinking of you.... tonys moonbase one

This might be your best yet @tonys I can't believe you have a wobbly calf - & naming is Maddy? You are an incredible friend to me too. Your letters me me so happy. Well, you sound particularly happy in this one - & I feel happy reading your joy!

I briefly read your letter in the other thread. I read it twice (or 3) I will study it more. I think we might have been synching? We were writing at similar times & about paths/highs/lows not necessarily being what they appear?

Don't worry, I kind of already knew your house was a mess!

Lovely of the backpackers.

I would take your advice & go for a walk... I've been stuck inside too long. Tho it has not stopped raining here today.

You are so funny xx

Hi @FloatingFeather that is really cool to know about your old cat 😻 I know the odd feeling you are talking about when we see a pet that looks like ours! ...I don't know.. . Maybe ruffles is saying hello? That's a very cute name. My cat is female, same personality as you described! I'm pretty sure she loves me - I have another cat that is much worse! It's a one way St 😊

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Hello dear @tonys

It has been some time.

I am back tonight.

I remained submerged under water as you suggested (periscope)

Resonated strongly with me actually as I used to love to swim underwater as a child. Preferred underwater to on the surface where all of the show offs were.

So bubbles emerging.

I have resurfaced briefly.

I am regaining my sense of self.

I am taking one day at a time.

I am working very hard at not allowing twin whom I now refer to as non-twin to overtake my thinking thereby affecting my emotions.

This is very new after a lifetime of being bonded with twin.

She has been controlling me since we were little though.

Never too late to learn.

Mum has passed now In September this year; extremely difficult although I am so thankful that I stayed with her those last three days. Twin could not.

Realisation that she has gone not yet,

That will happen in it;s own time.

I have had some beautiful, soulful moments that only I could experience.

Several different locations.

Truly memorable and beyond words.

So I have needed to be away.

I have just not had the words to express this part on here clearly.

I have read some of your other posts on here and thank you for the honour of being a

godmother to one of your calves.

My goodness.

A first.

Maddison another godmother.

Your interactions with @maddison and hers in return to you are beautiful to read.

I do not want to intrude on those.

I can be a friend to you both alongside your special friendship with each other.

I have also read some posts with @wordman which are very interesting; intriguing.

When I am in a better frame of mind I will venture there.

Stay safe @tonys

New carpet! Wow

Oh and thank you for the busking song by Colin from Men at Work.

A lovely surprise and most welcome.

@tonysYou need not worry about me.

I write on here with open heart in journal form.

I do not seek someone to fix me or advise me.

I seek to be read; my voice bursting forth to be listened to and heard only.

I do not have all the answers at all.

I welcome the opportunity to express.

I also gain much from helping others with whom I connect in some way.

Each person different.

As in real life.

That is a small part of who I am.

There is much more.

Stay safe

Sophia1