Living with Ourselves

maybe @Sophia1 I wouldnt read too much into it re me lol

hi @StuF

hi @Sophia1 yes mum my partner and i are very proud of what i am doing, i hope whomever gets the bike makes a lot of memeories and has a lot of fun.

yes they are going up so fast, one is 16 the other is 14 and really cheeky, getitng into some trouble. i often tell my partner she is so lucky to have a family, something i have never wanted but wonder sometimes if i would have made an ok parent. ever since i was a child i wanted my family history in australia to end with me, it is hard not knowing half my family and the shame they have of being german. anyway i have made my choice and have to live with it.

i do talk sometimes to my partners girls but not very often, i still get anxious talking to them.

so happy your gardenia is going well, my garden is looking amazing, i have just planted some lavender they are so tiny so im excited to watch them grow and hopfully make some nice perfume for the house.

i hope things are going ok with you, i know you are having a difficult time at the moment, how are your boys and husband going? how are you going?

enjoy our chats

jacques 🙂

Hi @Sophia1

I've seen you on the forums before, but I don't think we've interacted much until nagging @TAB 🙂

I hope the same for you and look forward to seeing you around

PS I love the Sia inspired profile pic! (That's if it is so inspired! Cool regardless)

Who knew re pic @StuF @Sophia1

sophia 1 is a German Prinzessin stuf

not sure why she bothers with me but seems shes on rare outing into daylight so consider yourself priveliged and make the most of it lol

@Sophia1

Just lovely to hear from you.

Am a bit stuck for words at the moment, but just wanted to leave a timely reply.

I love your detailed thoughtful posts to all on this thread. They really celebrate the unique in all.

About me

"It has been so interesting getting to know the many aspects of appleblossom.

You have always interested and intrigued me.

It took a long time to convince you that our differences are what I value."

Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am often afraid of being heartfelt and am more cerebral, but I do have feelings. Love you. Always loved your name.

Listening to this atm

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tdg-DT8rTUQ

@Appleblossom accidently typed on a you tube reading post not meant for me. sorry... So glad i did... 3 things 1 love, hands a piano.... and a spine tingling piece of Beethovens genius.. . I play and rewind the last minutes of the movie, the pianist, with Adrien Brody over and over for the same 3 things. If only the rulers would listen. With my pen usurped by the piano.... ill just go.... tonys , moon base one

Glad you liked it @tonys That is one good way the openness of the forum can work. We can relate to a single person but others see and partake and bounce off it, and so community spirit grows.

The pianist is a great movie, one of a few I have seen more than once.

I love the Chopin he plays in it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOWJP40MrkU

@maddison hello maddison, I just learnt about clicking on links and played that song. i hope i got it right and hope that one was meant for me, because its my kind of music. love the desperation in her voice, Guess im not the only one who watches rage when i cant sleep. i nearly lost that letter and spent couple of hours searching. Sooooo glad i did. Many thanks for that. gave me a lift after David Gray album, I hope your are in a good space maddison. Your letters always draw me to one place or another, Whish i could print them out... Your an oak mate, im going to bail and google the rest of that "little birdy" album, in fact i forgot i was logged into sane and got part way through it already..... music, the universe we go when this ones lost the plot..... tonys moon base one

@Sophia1 Hi mate. going through the drawers trying to respond to posts. I took some advice from you about writing in a journal then drawing from that to post replies, but i should write in my journal after i send them. It could be ive already replied to your post, Any way ill send this trimmed up version just in case... Botox you say, if i put some on the soles of my feet, will that make me taller. I really hear you on getting side tracked on the journey. Life's what happens while we're all making plans. Face book, i was thinking about the rear end of my pigs at the trough. Move over Mark Zuckerberg, ...... im embarking on my own startup......buttbook.....hope that gets over the net.... You ask who and what is real.. for me , its when im face to face and can look through the eyes to the depths of the soul, or can hear the spoken word with out hesitation, i can reach out and touch it. .. I trust in that. You are right.... no one ever really knows another's mind, We make our way through this landscape best we can.

City good to me so far. Blend and mix...... with draw, hide in my camouflage, reach and connect.... I feel like any body can be anyone in this place... Picked up some beaut vinyl records and some flowers for my room. cant ask for a better day than that can i.

Worlds a play ground, just gotta play nicely folks. Tonys moonbase one

@Appleblossom Jeepers, this kids just out of nappies and he can play the ivory like that !.

Im glad i brought my good headphones with me..... thanks again. over and out tonys Mb1