Living with Ourselves

I wrote a reply to my previous post in journal response as was my previous post.

I am not sure if this is welcome and might be deemed as my being unwell.

This saddens me as I see this platform as being a perfect place to write in a journal style.

Not everybody fits into group groups.

I came back and edited my reply yet again.

Sigh

nothing

I'm listening @Sophia1 and hearing you. ♥😔

@Sophia1 hi Sophia tonys here. read your lovely letter a few days ago and due to a few tech issues i havnt been able to send one back, so i just hope this one gets through the misty mountains to your door, should also add that i may not have seen you last posts either.. thankyou for your kind words about my writing, i feel you are being overly generous but hey, ill take it .. we are two people with tin cans connected by an old ball of thread.. every word that makes it through matters and and the feebleness of the thread accentuates my appreciation of the frail nature of all that connects mankind... as ghosts come and go in the night... so do the friends we thought we once had... to many cheap words expended in the battle to co exist,... to find meaning in the face of the stranger.. fools gold or tangible truth...... you are right... there is the word ... and then there is a place beyond the words. its where a warm wind whispers in to you,... you are not alone ... autism is just another word for normal.. they live in our world.. we dont live in theres.. and a truce is in sight... please give your son a hello for me... i have two more stars i have to light in the sky or a super nova for you both, you choose.. ah yes , my glasses. i have ones with different color glass but tonight ill wear the ones with mirrors and reflect on all that is beautiful.. tonys at moon base one.

@Sophia1

I hope you are back in one piece from your family day. I hope there were enough random pleasant social moments to make the trip worthwhile.

The way you wrote about being able to love your twin, is a little similar to the way I have had to deal with my many spiritual challenges. Come to terms with what has happened, understand, and accept. Love is the wiser path if at all possible.

Yes all that experience with schizophrenia. Too much experience really. Yet it is not what my son is deemed to have, nor does he present in that way. When I queried one of his doctors, she was very quick to say there was a lot of research ....

Yes You are right ... See the person.

Good to have you in my life.

Apple

Sending you lots of hugs my sister @Sophia1 💖💖💖

Hi @Sophia1 Thanks for your thoughtful message.

Not speaking out of turn at all.

I always feel warmly towards thoughtfulnes & kindness.

I could have died from falling head-first through my ceiling, I have been told.

Indeed my Dentist today told me of a friend/ colleague of his, who fell from a much lesser height (only a metre or so), from a ladder.

He hit his head, & he did not survive.

I have not lost my sense of humour at all (I need that).

I've been the brunt of many Jokes in Bad Taste, since my fall - They were totally out of place, & have further dented any faith that I have left in Humanity.

Aliens would surely be Kinder, if they existed....

My new Aviary is still in the Box (in pieces), it is not yet Constructed.

Being served with Divorce papers, then Workplace Harrassment (not yet resolved), then falling through my ceiling, then several teeth breaking - There have been too many Spanners in the works.

So personal or meaningful things have gone on Hold - Until the Storm of very Bad Luck etc has passed.

Quite a few unexpected Waves crashing, one after the other - Not much opportunity to Re-group or to recover.

I like your idea of Celebrating the Divorce.

Although this has all been borne alone, with no support or company - So has been alienating in experience.

Best Wishes,

Adge

@Emelia8 @tonys @Appleblossom @Adge @Shaz51 @Jacques and others whom have responded or hit the support button lately

On medical merrygoround with self tests for covid for husband as he is in vulnerable health category

Interesting how I plough full force into action when the need arises

Have always been this way

Without a second thought I am the first one there.

Yet self isolate?

Well not self isolating today

Have to go to dreaded chemist; supermarket and medical centre again.

Will speak soon

Sophia

💛sunshine to warm your hearts and the cockles of your soul as the old saying goes haha

A quick hello @RedHorse

wondering how you are

@Clawde

hoping all manageable in your world and looking forward to reading more on your keeping happy thread

@TAB

Hoping that if you have moved you are reaping the rewards.

will think of more later

Hmm lets say that I am 'reaping rewards' @Sophia1 .. ok

in general., yes, last week or so, no. Am I following Plan ? Yes, mostly and a bit slowly perhaps but getting there