Living with Ourselves

Hey @Sophia1 No need to reply Hon

You are special, you are worthy and you are loved 💖💖💖

No matter what anyone is going through, your concerns are important too. You are in no way adding to anyone elses - that is what we are all here for - to support each other. Sometimes we need to be in our own little bubble and sometimes we need others around us - and sometimes it is important to be here when someone else is in pain or struggling because we care very much for that person and have no trouble putting aside our own stuff for them ...that is the case here for you sweetheart.

Hold that love and care in your hands and feel the warmth of it around you.

Know that you are being thought of and matter to others.

And above all know that you deserve support, even if you do not know exactly what that should look like right now.

Hugs and hugs and hugs beautiful 💖

@Sophia1 🙏🌺🌻🌸💕

Hello @Zoe7

A brief visit with few words..

still needing time out

appreciate and thank you so much for your beautiful sentiment..

expressed so well..

I will if I get back here,, respond and learn more about your situation...

Still wanting to see your special pet sanctuary,,,

Mine is currently covered in weeds and had items lumped there as a place to dump by ...hmm

Hmm has put in a lot of hard labour and hard work in establishing gardens and I am not diminishing this fact in anyway... He definitely does all of the hard labour...

I do the weeding...planting...feeding...mulching...adding bark chip...

currently tending other different large garden areas..

have bought a little concrete ornament honouring their passing..

so need to get there eventually to sort everything out and create a sanctuary..

in the meantime have to sort out other garden areas..

I am sure that you are fully aware..

I know that you have your teaching job back which will reward you in so many areas...

Hope all well with you otherwise..

Unsure when back on..,,.

Could be anytime the way my mind is..

Take care and thank you again..

Sophia

Hello Lovely @Emelia8

I have read that your situation and pain levels have worsened.

I want to let you know that I have a level of understanding of what you are going through.

Only a level.

I have had severe back pain with 2 bulging discs.. 1 year later eventually recovered ...

Back surgery..very different to your situation with a rare condition where tumour grew through nerve sheaves eventually wrapping around 2 vertebrae of spine..

no symptoms until the final weeks...minimal though.

would have had a complete compressed spine if not operated on when did..spread from tumour in nerve sheaf to two months later wrapped around vertebrae..vertebrae removed and plate with 4 screws added...

incredible what can happen to the spine our main support or body without knowing..

I am still not clear and also have to have brain MRI next time..

You know your pain and your diagnosis..your surgeon probably has a clearer picture than mine.

One thing that I will say is..

Best not to compare with anyone else's story...

Best not to compare with surgeries from decades even years ago..,,

medicine...research...in particular spine has come so far within that time span..

If you have asked every possible question that you have and have asked if I have more can I still ask them and you as a result trust your surgeon....let go of all of your emotion around your diagnosis...your pain....your surgery,..,

Put your trust in that person...They will have a strong team on board..

This is of course if you are having surgery...

again so very different from even one year ago...

your symptoms will never match those of another...similar well yes we can say that about so many instances..

this is about you...

you trusting your surgeon or specialist..

you not listening to anyone else...

leave browser searching alone...it is biased...

After all of that..

Emelia you have definitely had far far too much to deal with in your lifetime up to now...

Lifetime ahead...

new interests

more than likely new friends..

new possibilities within your life situation always possible for a person so caring and loving as you are..

Emelia will always be there with all of her love and compassion no matter her circumstances..

Emelia will find something that brings her joy and allows her to spread her neverending love.

Sophia xxx

@Sophia1 😇💕

Hello @TAB

I am so sorry that I have not been here to support you through your work

Too much going on within my family as well as myself being told to take time out ...

repeatedly..when not quite listening..

I hope that you have managed to earn some income and sort out that dreadful workplace from the past.

I hope that you are living in suitable arrangements and have all resources that you need dear tab..

Sophia

@Emelia8

I have no idea of your current update so please forgive me if I have sounded dismissive.

I sincerely wish you all the best in coping with your pain and any possible surgery.,.

Thank you @Sophia1 🙏💖

Surgery is all I have left. Everything else has failed.

Hello @Krishna

Thank you so very much for your caring post some time ago now.

You will have realised that I am taking time out.

I do hope that your own situation is less intense if that is possible.

Coping with our children having to deal or experience such extreme circumstances is totally incomprehensible to the majority of the world.

I will get off of my high horse temporarily which seems to happen far too often..

Take care and know that I do think of you

Sophia

Hello @Emelia8

Surgery for me was the only option.

Research has come a very long way from the timeframe that you have referred to.

Surgery used to come with unknown results..

Surgery is not something to be frightened of if you ask all of the questions that you need to and I sincerely mean...ask every single question...no matter how impatient they become...tell them... that you still need to know... it is your right.. it is your body..this will settle your mind...you will then find or well I did that I was impatient for it to be done..I only wanted to be the other side so that I could begin the new journey of recovery..

this of course is explained to you by your surgeon...what to expect after surgery..

If you trust your surgeon...let everything else go..they have the expertise..allow them to take all of that anguish away from you by answering your questions..

All I wanted to know was will I be able to walk after...

Believe in your intelligence..intuition and faith..

You have come through so much already....Believe that this is the opportunity for change..