Living with Ourselves

Not a problem @Sophia1 . I like to keep up with your posts, and subscribe to your thread here in order to do so.

I just dont always have much to say. I have been a little quiet lately I have to admit. More reading than posting. Lots happened and feeling kind of lost and very 'down' these past couple of weeks. Lots of reasons, which I wont go into here. I would love to hear from you of course, when you are feeling up to being here. But I also respect your need to not be here too much. Of course I always remember you. How could I not? 😊 Hi @eudemonism ... friendly wave 👋

Sherry 💕

@Sophia1

Yep I'll keep that in mind .but i dont think I'll use it .as i believe it's just another flawed system in our society.

@Sophia1 it's a daily battle i tell ya ... illness, treatment, side effects, trying to manage and get on with life ... thinking about life before diagnosis ... I'm also having car issues at the moment... and basically it needs a mechanic, a few parts, and a tune up... $$$ i don't have...

I'm thinking about installing a small wood fire ... also ... I'm getting close to paying off my two loans. . And once i have paid them off, I'm going to save for what i want /need instead of getting into debt ...

Have been thinking about the importance of money... and how it buys what we need ... and how it buys things for us to use -in our day to day lives... which making surviving, living and thriving possible ... kind of a trap really ... or just the nature of the beast... not the be all and end all to life ... but definitely a crucial factor... as I'm sure you know ...

I hope all is well for yourself and your company ...

Hi @Sophia1 I like your new Avatar.

I'm keeping mine the same - I've had it for years, long before I joined this site.

I hope your car issues are not too serious, & can be sorted out or fixed soon.

Adge

I like your new Avatar. @Sophia1

Hi @Sophia1 I'm just putting together my tbi from head injury as a child, the compensation money and compensation psychology. It's all played games with my mind for a fair while now.

Plus being in denial about it. Questioning if it was real or not .and also trying to get on with life .but truth be know .the cognitive and behavioral issues are real and not going away .

Then being diagnosed and treated ...

Then also taking into account the normal adversaries, difficulties and challenges of life (that people are up against ) .even for the most physically and mental well people. Or those without tbi and mi .but i suppose something gets to all of us eventually and it's rare for anybody to live a life free from problems .I'm just upset about it, because i seem to have extra issues on my plate .

Hello @eudemonism

Cars are the bane of our existence aren't they..

My baby is back at the car doctor I refer to it as now..as it seems to keep on going back..

same issue as a year ago..

am stamping my foot though and am being heard...

assertion does help...

Paying off loans is a great feeling and a huge achievment Eude for someone of your age..

Understanding that you cannot get ahead by continuing to buy things and pay later can create all sorts of problems when the unexpected arises is a credit to you..

Yes spending can be a trap...thinking that we need something as opposed to realising that we just want it ...can get by without it...later on will just want something else and so on..

this is human...a natural reaction for many of us...who all have the option like you to ask ourselves do we really need that?

You are on the right track talking this out...thinking about this shows that you understand the benefits of being debt free even if it means you do not have what you would like..

Thank you for your kind wishes re my family's health...

is manageable at the moment...

I too hope that you find time out from self analysing and time to be Eude...💜

Hello @eudemonism

I thought that I would respond to each post as I can ramble making it hard for the reader to understand...

I do not know the meaning of "tbi" something brain injury?

I do know of others who have acquired brain injuries who also struggle understanding what, why and when...

I imagine everything that happened around that time and even now if you try to recollect would be confusing.

I know that I have been diagnosed with chronic trauma from several incidents over the years of my life.

I have blanks where years have passed.

Definite blanks of periods of trauma.

My specialist believes that I dissociated during these periods as an automatic safety mechanism hence up until now there are blanks..

I practise noticing the feelings...taking care of myself ...going outside definitely helps me as a quick measure......

I realise also that you know all of this as well as realising that life just happens..

Feeling that too much is on your plate is hard...I hope that this feeling eases as the days go by.

Doing what you do well will help you.

I also hope that your feeling upset passes soon.

How is the writing these days?

Again I am sorry for being absent and randomly responding...please understand it has nothing to do with our friendship as I have said...it is a way of my helping myself..

you too can practise this..looking after yourself first...

take care as always Eude 💜

So sorry @outlander and now @Former-Member

also @Adge @Shaz51

I can't keep up with everyone...

I did want to try and read back over your stories..

problem is I write far too much...edit then rewrite ...edit and so on.

I will try to get back to you within the next couple of days as I do want to support you..

perhaps if you tag me in the most relevant thread that can give me an idea of what you are currently going through so that I do not say something that might upset you..

take care all

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