Living with Ourselves

@utopia

Agree almost ord to word with everything that you have stated..

just reading that is soothing for me at this moment..realising not alone in my thoughts..

not soothing for us at the time though..

appreciate you replying..

please visit and talk to me about your day when you can..

emotional reactions without warning and physical pain can be so alienating when trying to be so brave...

so appreciate your words..💚♥️💚

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@MDTwrote:
hey @Sophia1 thanks so much for tagging me in the post

I must admit, I am somewhat unfamiliar with the story you have but from the sound of it you are dealing with a fair bit. I hope you find the forums good.

I'm taking a bit of a backseat on here of late. Not having the best experience unfortunately. But do know that I'm wishing you all the best with what's going on.

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How lovely and considerate for you to respond....not knowing me that well..in a caring..respectful way also...much appreciated..

taking a backseat is very familiar with me...I managed to upset a few people...confuse people. ..as well as need time to step back...all part of being in lived in a huge forum now here there is so much fragility ..sensitivity...self acknowledgement happening...emotions bouncinoff each of us left ..right..and centre..so don't feel alone there..can.be good for reality check as in real world and virtual world..coming back to forum world when wanting to..

NLy stay back for yourself..I find my own thread or smaller threads to hang back in..

Always welcome here..talk about what you feel like..want you to have good experiences on here..re energise..

thank you again 💚♥️💚

@outlander @utopia

Brave is a word often u Sed to describe others ..no necessarily self I n my case..

yes I am still awake and am supposed to be asleep..

overwhelmed by caring responses from all of you....helping me feel valued and supported..

goodnight now...hope to speak another time when able..💚♥️💚

@Sophia1 we have had some fun when we have both been in that 'space' to do so - and I have enjoyed it as much as you. Hopefully we can share more of those times in the future - it would be good for both of us For now it is a matter of getting through each day for me - some days are definitely better thsn others though and I could not have said that even a couple of months ago -so I am definitely taking that as a positive. I hope you can find some positives in amongst the battles you are facing presently @Sophia1 - thinking of you

hello @utopia @outlander

I read back my responses last night..

I often make typing errors on the dratted ipad...it often freezes...

reads like gobbledygook...hopefully people can get the main gist...

brave is a word I associate with others.....

I would describe myself more as determined and probably too independent for my own good...I have learnt to be that way being on my own for the majority of my life..as a child within my birth family...as a wife within my first marriage....as a supporting mother with my two beautiful sons...

as for last night...I was on the ipad for far too long...unable to get to sleep thereafter...wrestled with half doped...half dazed feeling for the whole night ...early morning....stiff and tired this morning...shall go to bed earlier and stay off ipad...read my book and lights out...

I think that I was like an excited child with friends taking notice of me....

how did you both sleep?