Living with Ourselves

@Sophia1there's nothing wrong with realising, acknowledging and accepting the way you are. I think that's a great trait for people to have. But also think about an achievable plan to work your way through it.

All this negative stuff may never go stay. So don't let it stop you from doing what you need to do. When it comes to looking after yourself - as best as you possible can.

A shower, make the bed, a little bit of tidying or cleaning, plan something good for next week, think about having something you enjoy for lunch or tea, put a load of washing on. Lay down. Take a few deep breathes. Focus on th solution and not the problem. - It maybe the most indirect thing. Eude

Hello @eudemonism

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@eudemonism wrote:
@Sophia1there's nothing wrong with realising, acknowledging and accepting the way you are. I think that's a great trait for people to have. Buy also think about an achievable plan to work your way through it.

All this negative stuff may never go stay. So don't let it stop you from doing what you need to do. When it comes to looking after yourself - as best as you possible can.

A shower, make the bed, a little bit of tidying or cleaning, plan something good for next week, think about having something you enjoy for lunch or tea, put a load of washing on. Lay down. Take a few deep breathes. Focus on th solution and not the problem. - It maybe the most indirect thing. Eude

Thank you so much for reassuring me that there is nothing wrong in the way I think....

When I am extremely emotional....too many meteorites hitting me from all angles at once....my words can become a complicated ball of string that has been unravelled and clumsily gathered up in a mess...

Housework is the last thing on my list as we went through those appointments for perspective buyers...

The house is sold...just waiting for cooling off period now...

We also have settlement in 3 weeks tomorrow....

my very laid back husband thinks it is hilarious...

I am a collector of books! stuff that I have printed off....written....etc....

The marvellous thing about it all is that we more than likely have a place to rent....a friend has three properties vacant...we are more than happy to rent one ...not the other two..he is away coming back tomorrow...

once cooling off period on house over and done we can sign lease to rent...

husband now with our builder finishing off last touches to plan to be sent off to architect...

So where there were thunderclaps there are now rainbows...

lastly hospital rang about details for procedure on monday...I mentioned virus...she said don't worry about it she lost her voice for four weeks...she advised me to let nurse that I feel fine and go ahead...

So fingers crossed anaethetist wont notice croaking or swollen glands ...it will be over and done with...

So Eude...the day just took care of itself...unbelievable...

I am in a new sort of haze now....

I am already dissociated and now am depersonalised from all of this stuff happening around me....

I think that I am in the best place actually...

Everyone else can get on with the packing laugh...

Sounds like the orange juice ...uh hum...bacon and eggs shared with friend went over well....

good for you...

your friend

Sophia

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@eudemonism wrote:
@Sophia1a little bit of cleaning, or a lot of cleaning, it's all the same thing...

I do genuinely care about what you think of me. And as for what I think of you. It hangs in the balance of what you think of me. - i suppose I'm trying to say that I do genuinely care. & I'm always picking up on your aura and vibe. - your wellbeing is my wellbeing... Eude

I can sense you're going through an emotional phase. Probably due to everything happening around you. The uncertainties. The unknowns. The changes. It also sounds like you got a plan for moving forward.

I took a picture of Purrpurr before. She was resting on the hot water service a she looked over the backyard. Do you ever take pictures of your cats?

All for now...

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Dear @eudemonism

Thank you for letting me know that you care.....

What do I think about you? ...you ask...

I think that I believe in you...

I believe that you have so much to offer this world....

I have seen the growth in your writing...

Yes I am aware of the change with the depot injection...the change in your thinking style...

What do I wish for you?

I wish for you to like yourself....recognise your talents....your writing...your thinking at great depth at times is so very interesting....

I wish for you to believe in yourself...

I sincerely hope that you follow through with your new doctor and new psychiatrist....giving yourself a chance to bring about some much needed change in your life....

If you are concerned about what I think of you when you are affected by symptoms of your mind or side effects of your current medication....Please do not be concerned....

I am not shallow...

I know that Eude is there....I do not judge you...

Yes I have been through far too much over the last 15 years.....Far too much in the last 2-3 years....far too much in the last year....I am tired....I am fatigued...

I am not giving in though or giving up...

I might sound weird....that is just my writing straight from my thoughts...

Photographs of my cats....yes I have many...would love to share them....including my late soul cat ....sadly I cannot....they are far too distinguishable and would be easily recognised.....

One cat is very friendly and even welcomes strangers....the other cat is extremely aloof and only is friendly with us on her terms...

what sort of temperament does Purrpurr have? How are Mister and Purrpurr with Monti/python....

oh my goodness....I only just got ....Monti Python...Brilliant Eude...

See what I mean...

Ha I shall go off to bed laughing now....

Have a good night Eude....

speak soon

Sophia

Hello @Owlunar

I am so sorry ....

I wrote a lengthy response to your post about your experience on the other site....your mother....your granddaughter...

I was touching on the spiritual side...

I spoke about vulnerable times in my growing up...

I tagged @Appleblossom also...

now I cannot find the post...

it might already be here...

I have looked but cannot see it..

I am very tired....will look tomorrow...

flipping computers drive me nuts sometimes...

Good morning @eudemonism

Your purrpurr sounds like my Sassy .....there she has an internet name now...

Have to think of one for my boy...he can be Sylvester....

So I have Sassy and Sylvester

Sophia

Good morning @Owlunar @Appleblossom @outlander @eudemonism @Zoe7

I have not been able to locate my two responses to your comments

one yesterday

one just now

forever lost in the world of cyberspace....it would be interesting to know whether or not all has eventually settled in the same continuum...

oh well

hope that you are all finding more accomplishment within your day....

@Sophia1 Maybe there is a unknown planet out there somewhere in the universe where all our lost posts go - wouldn't that be interesting to collate all those posts and try to tell a story from them

My world is quite dark at present but I am battling through the best I can. There seems to be quite a few people struggling here at the moment so although I know I am not alone it feels very much like I am - a hard place to be sitting in reality.

How are you going - I know you have not been doing well either - so much happening in your life - the physical and mental difficulties certainly do drag us down.

Thinking of you and sending you lots of virtual hugs