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Hi @Wintersweet

It was pretty much the response I expected from my pdoc. He is quite easy to talk to. I have been seeing him for quite awhile now so he knows my good and bad times. He made another appt. for next week too. Already done something I said I would try not to.

Having a slow day, just watching the footy. I think bed will be early tonight.

How is your day going?

@Snowie

I’m so sorry I missed your message when I logged on earlier! I don’t know how I missed it because I thought I checked my notifications.

I’m glad your pdoc knows you and that he’s continuing to check in. It’s really hard to get away from our old coping mechanisms isn’t it? Is there anything you find helpful? It’s ok if that’s hard to answer, there’s no pressure, just space to share if you want to 💛

My day was also pretty slow and I’m also thinking of going to bed early. Hope you’re able to get some sleep.

No need to be sorry @Wintersweet I miss notifications all the time!

Ended up in bed quite early last night but sleep still evaded me.

Today has been a bit easier since H is around. Haven't really done much, but thats ok, the couch is getting plenty of use!

I hope the day has been going ok for you.

@Snowie

I’m glad today was a bit easier with H around. Sorry sleep is still evading you though. 💛

Today went better than I thought with the friend I hadn’t seen in ages. She was happy to just show me around her place and talk about the various projects she has going which meant I didn’t have to think to hard to keep the conversation going.

Hi @Wintersweet

I'm glad to hear that yesterday went better than expected. Always good when you get a talker. Just nod your head and smile!

To the supermarket this morning with mum. In and out quite quickly which was good.

I hope today goes well for you 💕

@Snowie

Yes! It was similar when we were kids I think and one of the things I appreciate about her.

I’m glad you were able to get in and out of the shops quickly this morning.

Hope the rest of the day goes well for you too!

Hi @Wintersweet

Been cleaning here most of the day. Lots in my head so have been staying busy. Just a few more things to do but that can wait until tomorrow.

I used to have a friend that would talk and talk about everything in their lives. Sometimes I don't know how she breathed in between! Just used to sit there, smile and nod

@Snowie

I hope that the cleaning was a good distraction. What task are you most happy to have gotten done?

I think it works well with this friend because she’s relaxed and carries the conversation but doesn’t just talk a million miles an hour the whole time. Having someone who was just talking non-stop can get overwhelming! I think it also depends on what we have going on. If my brain is trying to process something else it can be much harder work to follow what someone’s saying. Or if I’m really struggling it can feel lonely to have someone completely unaware. Whereas if I’m just low on “topic generating energy” having them carry the conversation can be helpful. I think it also makes a difference whether I feel I can be honest with them and have them listen/understand when I do say something, even if I then don’t say much.

What does the week ahead look like for you?

The cleaning did disract me @Wintersweet

I guess it did it's job and I have a clean house (well most of it)

I hate cleaning bathrooms and toilets but glad when they are done. With H and S they need cleaning regularily.

I guess it does depend on the person and your relationship with them. I'm not much of a talker and hate having to start/continue conversations. I get very anxious around people. Been like that since early in my life.

My week looks ok. Have psych Wed and pdoc (phone) Thurs. Hoping the rest is quiet.

How is your week looking?

@Snowie

Yay for a clean house! I think we all have those jobs that we’re especially glad to have done.

Fully agree about it depending on the relationship with the person. That’s a good concise way of putting it.

Being anxious around people is really stressful. Is there anything people have done that has made you feel more settled around them?

I’m glad you get to see your psych this week. Hope that goes well for you, that the check in with the pdoc is helpful too, and that the rest of it is indeed quiet.

My week will mostly just be trying to figure out what I can manage with work at the moment, plus seeing my psych Thursday.