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Good afternoon @Wintersweet

Went and saw mum before. She is forever complaining about others, like she is so perfect.

Those visits tire me out so quickly.

Came home, stuffed up.

Self compassion is extremely hard. It is so easy to have that compassion for others, but when it comes to ourselves, it is completely different. It is something that I and my psych have talked about quite a few times. Whilst I think I have changed a little, I defiantly have a long way to go.

How is your day going?

@Snowie

I think anyone who doesn’t enjoy talking badly about others finds it really exhausting to listen to other people talk that way. I’m not surprised it’s super draining for you, let alone all the other things that I know come with seeing you mum. Not sure how you feel about virtual hugs but there’s one here for you if you want it along with a lot of compassion for how things are for you right now 💛

Trigger warning just for more thoughts on self-compassion in case it feels like too much for today, which is ok!

Hi @Wintersweet thanks for the virtual hug 💗💗much appreciated

Just as an example today my mum told me two new nurses had started. He words were they are nice but both very big. I'm not sure what their size has to do with how well they do their job! Have a lot more lines like that!

I don't think it helped growing up in a household where I was always told what was wrong with me or what I did wrong. Appearances were a very big deal growing up. It had to look like the perfect family from the outside. Very far from the truth.

Thanks for all that information. I will defiantly explore that website.

It sounds like you have done a lot of research into self compassion. I hoped that it has helped you.

You are very knowledgeable about many different topics. Your ability to help others is really nice to see.

Aww, thanks @Snowie !

I hope you find it helpful too.

I have to be quick as I need to get to my psych appointment but the pressure of maintaining the image of a perfect family when things aren’t good would be enormous. Having to listen to your mum talk about people that way, especially with the background, would be super uncomfortable!

Sending you 💛

Thanks @Wintersweet

I hope your psych appt. goes well

@Snowie

Thank you! It actually did even after I was really worried it wouldn’t.

I hope you’re able to get some better sleep tonight 💛

Good morning @Wintersweet

Glad the appt. with your psych went well.

Not much sleep again

@Snowie

I hope today goes well for you 💛

I’m thinking of you with the ongoing bad sleep. It makes everything so much harder when we can’t sleep and I know things are already really hard.

Do you have much on today/over the weekend?

I wanted to message you now as I’ll likely have poor internet connection again today but I’ll check back when I can. Sending you 💛

Thanks @Wintersweet

Been awake since 5:30

Spoke to podc this morning. Blurted out a lot. Guess you could say he was worried. Had to promise a few things. Now I need to try and keep it.

Not much planned for the weekend.

I hope you day goes well 💗

@Snowie

Well done for continuing to tell your pdoc stuff. Was his response what you’d have hoped for or was there have been something else that would have been more helpful?