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@Snowie

That feeling of not getting through what you needed to in a psych appointment is one I know well and one that’s really hard. If I were your psych I wouldn’t be upset with you if you were struggling or didn’t stick to the goals we’d set, I’d be thinking about why and how I could best help you with that 💛

Same for you @Bow 💛

Thanks @D4Dolphin @Bow @Wintersweet

I saw my gp this morning. She's concerned about a few of my blood test results. Have to go have some more tests done. Got to go have an endoscopy too.

I got a certificate from her for jury duty. Hoping to never have to do it but will see. At least a deferral.

My psych emailed me the goals we set in yesterdays appointment. It feels like so much to get through. I know I need to break it down and take one step at a time but feels very overwhelming. I guess all I can do is try.

Really wanted to get to kmart today but just no energy. Hopefully tomorrow.

@Snowie

I’m glad you were able to get the certificate from your GP for jury duty. Sorry that you have to have more blood tests and an endoscopy though. Hoping they can work out what is causing the results your GP was concerned about and address whatever is causing it.

Thinking of you as you work at breaking down those goals from your psych. It makes sense that it would feel overwhelming, and the fact that you’re willing to try even though it feels overwhelming is really commendable!

If it’s helpful to talk about what’s making the goals feel hard, or to talk about how you’re approaching breaking them down please feel free to share (but also please know that it’s ok if you don’t want to share 💛).

Thanks @Wintersweet

I think things just get overwhelming, especially the thought of letting someone down.

Today hasn't really been a good start. Besides getting to the gp this morning, the day has been spent hiding from everyone and everything.

I've had to contact LL which helped a little.

@Snowie

I’m glad you were able to connect with LL and that they were able to support you a bit. I’m sorry it’s been so hard today though. I truly don’t believe you’d be letting anyone down if you can’t do the goals from your psych, but I can understand why you would feel that way given past/current experiences where people have had unrealistic expectations/unfairly made you feel that you’ve let them down. It’s ok to struggle with the feeling of being in danger/the fear of letting someone down. 💛

Thanks @Wintersweet

I hope the day has been kind to you.

Spoke to my pdoc yesterday. Told him about the last month and whats been happening. He mentioned the dreaded H word again and I said no unless I don't have a choice. His response was that it might come to that. It stirred up a lot of emotions, I ended up contacting LL last night.

Made myself get up today and went and saw Mum and had a coffee with her. Hoping to have the next few days to myself.

Well done for telling pdoc what’s happening @Snowie and for having coffee with your mum. 💜

@Snowie 💗

@Snowie

How are you going? I know you said you’d had some stuff that you’d needed to sort out over the weekend and that there were some really rough times last week. 💛