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hello and hugs @Snowie

sorry i have not been around lately

@Snowie

Have been thinking of you too! Always good to hear from you 💛

Hey dear @Shaz51

Have been missing you hon, wondering where you have been

I hope things are going ok for you

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Hey @Wintersweet

Good to hear from you

How have you been?

@Snowie

I’ve been mostly ok, I think? I’ve been really spaced out, which I think is protective in some ways but has been making me very unproductive at work. For the past three or so months I’d been getting panic attacks the second I woke up, but that seems to have stopped this week. I’m wondering if it was getting the B12 and iron deficiencies corrected that helped? Or maybe it’s connected to being more spaced out? Either way I’m grateful for the break from that.

Hi @Wintersweet

I'm glad the panic attacks have stopped. I've had some in the past and they're not pleasent.

Getting them every day would be hard. Not a nice way to start your day out.

I think sometimes spaced out is nice. Stops you from over thinking everything.

@Snowie

Agreed! When it’s mainly just physical symptoms (like these were) and not the result of a specific trigger it’s way easier to just wait it out. Still super unpleasant though, so really hoping they don’t come back!

So after my last psych appt. got cancelled I finally got in to see my psych today. Had a lot to discuss and didn't get through half of it. Got really upset at one stage and sort of blurted out what I've been doing. I know she's not meant to show it but I think she was unhappy with me. Or maybe it's just me being upset with myself. Felt like all we did was damage control. She's set some goals for me for the next few weeks and I'm scared I'm just going to let her down again. Another thing I just fail at.

Got called up for jury duty too. I'm meant to go on the same date I have a psych appt. I see my gp tomorrow and hoping I'm able to get out of it or at least defer it. It's really not something I want to do.

I wish the weekend vibes would stay around but they feel long gone.

That’s a big day you had there, @Snowie

Go easy on yourself. Take some time to put those goals into a manageable flow over the next few weeks. Slice ‘em and dice ‘em into some bite-sized chunks for yourself.

And I hear you on jury duty. Let’s hope a deferral at least, based on existing medical appointment.

Yes, weekend vibes may feel long gone – and maybe that’s a sign that next weekend is not too far away?

@Snowie thats a rough day. Can very much relate to be concern of not completing the goals your psychologist has set for you- that’s me every week. But the fact that we survive each week is something that we need to recognize and celebrate.

jury duty…. I actually got that letter a few weeks back. I got out of it cause I care for someone under 18. Think part of me would like to do it one day, but not now. Not with my mh like it is.

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