Niquas Notes

Haha, Niqua. It's my chin not my lip that would be waxed. Don't mind a slightly fuzzy lip, hehe, but chin hairs, not keen. Nonetheless I am going to cancel that appointment today. May be able to get back to them next week before leaving on Thursday. @Former-Member

My poor Claire @outlander

I haven't been keeping-up with how things are going for you, would you throw a tag in for me to catch up? Are you still getting the sleep meds on a regular basis? Have you gotten off the anti-depressant that was affecting your weight? How are the medications that affect you liver going? I'm a bad Nanny, not knowing these things!! I've been too busy blurbing my own silly stuff. Are the 'bullies' still in your paddock? I wouldn't be much help irl, but I wish I could be there just to support you and tell you your right & they are wrong.

Love to Claire

pppfffttt! Mazy @Mazarita 😄

Seems I can't {had to edit that in} read the letters in front of me! Have you ever heard of the Bearded singing lady {bloke!} that won the Euro-song competition . . . it's a really hard 1 to pull off!!! 😄 😄 Maybe you should get that shave tomorrow 😄 😄 {I'm joking!:)}

NIqua

Hahahaha, Niqua. Yes, I don't want to become the bearded lady! More like the bristly lady. But really it's mainly a lot of fine, 'downy' hairs, with a few nasty black ones poking through. Got to get rid of em next week.

@Former-Member, @outlander, dropped out of our earlier conversation due to sleepiness. Just woke up again from another 'nap' of a couple of hours. I think the pain of the foot has me tired today. Also that I've been out in sun and wind a lot this week, and have been doing something out of the flat, sometimes at earlier than usual hours, every day so far. I don't have much stamina, though it is improving. Anyway, it is what it is. And now I don't have to wait as long for my friend to turn up this arvo. There may be another friend dropping in for a tea too. It never rains but it pours! Hope the day is unfolding well for both of you.

Gidday Mazy @Mazarita 🙂

I've got a bit of a moe Maz, it doesn't bother me though. I remember when I was young my Mother used to put this bleach cream on it - I hated it . . it stunk! & you know what . . . I don't think my moe bothered me back then either! 😄 But maybe that's why I went straight for the moe & missed the chin fluff ;D

Don't worry about dropping-out, Forum magic means you can drop-back-in anytime you like 🙂

Pain is exhausting & sometimes all you can do for it is rest, & even without the pain you've been pretty go, go, go girl & you know you've got go, go, go coming! 🙂 & it sounds like you've got go, go, go again today! 🙂 I hope you enjoy your friends visit & another friend over for tea! You social butterfly!

I'm starting to feel a little cranky and flat. Day 1 without the tinted glasses, fancy that.

Afternoon my NN,

thats ok about not keeping up, Im not that exciting but the thread name is called 'rough time' and you can find it here

I dont take the sleepers anymore. Its a no win situation I have to be desparate for sleep like I am now (had 2 nights sraight with no sleeps and then another 2 nights with broken sleep and really only 3 hrs all up) but when I take them they give me worse nightmares making me more tired and irritated and anxious so I dont like to take them. Um yes Im still on those meds, im suppose to be going off them slowly and 2 doses away from being off them well uh its one now. I cant see my gp till next weke and ive only got enough meds if I take half (which I the next dose down) so im only one dose away from being off them. Im hoping that my gp will let me just stop them since im on the lowest dose now (at my own will). Apparently after im off them a weke or 2 might be hell while all the chemicals go back to normal but can stay in the system for up to 6 weeks so might not see much change in weight for another little while but am still eating healthy and I increased my exercise by an extra half-an hr depending on how tired I am.

Ive been really bad with the bloods, I dont want to be a pin cushion anymore NN, im suppose to be getting blood for the last 2 weeks. I did try once but they actually turned me away after they couldnt get a vein or blood out the 4 times they tried. They said my veins were collpased from either dehyration or stress or both so they sent me away and to come back but I havent been back since. In another 3 weeks ill need to get bloods done again. Im finding lately im getting pain around tha same kidney that I had the last 2 infections in. but its also in my stomach so thats why they want to do to the bloods for h/pylori. I spoke to gp about that and she said because I didnt have the infection this time last yr if it comes up in this lot of bloods then the infections recent menaing ive got it in my ssytem. I dont like being unwell or in pain sometimes it gets bad that I hold my breath. It just adds to the rest of what im already dealing with. I dont think its silly stuff, I love reading what you write here, half the time im just not sure what to say.

Uh bullies- yes they are but I dont speak or see them all that much anyway. Im right at the end of the paddock and evne though I work there they arent usually there when im there so doesnt really matter.

Love you too @Former-Member

Afternoon @Mazarita

pain is a very tiring and draining thing, so its not wonder you would be tired, and then the combination of sun and being busy adds to that too. How was your visit with your friend? And hows your foot feeling this afternoon?

Thurs22Feb
I haven't mentioned the cleaning I've done. I picked up the bloody broom! I didn't quite get the whole house done, because I got way-laid tidying-up & rearranging the loungue-room! I have a dog bed that's larger than my recliners, it was just sort of sitting in the middle of the room, very much in the way {particularly when you take into consideration the piles of mess that were around it!} It's now neatly sitting beside my chair near the front door 🙂 And . . . [drum roll . . . ] I can see my floor!!!!! 😄 😄 When I look to my right there's a partial wall, it's between the spare room door & the opening for the kitchen, there honestly used to be junk piled half way up it . . . I put it all away!!! I've put all my spare blankets back in the blanket-box that was under it all & all my pens, pencils & paper away in the low-boy cupboard beside it 🙂 All of a sudden my lounge room seems twice as big! 😉

I'm feeling a pretty rapid slide. I know I've been propping myself up in an unacceptable way for the past month or so, . . . but it works, & if I could I would continue to do so. I think there may be a few 'difficult' days ahead for me. It's like all the colour gets drained out of my World, all the joy, all the good feelings. And to be honest, although I try, I really do try, there's not a lot of good in it. I'm loney. I'm bored. I can feel that lump in my throat, you know the 1 you get when your going to cry. It's not panic because then that lump would choke me, it's just feeling sorry for poor lonely old me.

The nausea hasn't gone away, I can't tell if I'm sick or if it's my brains processes, I think it's my brain because it's not worsening or relieving. But this morning, for the first time in ages, I was actually ill. I am having difficulty getting good nutrition in . . . any nutrition in. It's so hard when you don't feel well! I know not having nutrition will make it worse, but I feel ill! I've just got to find whatever food it is that my brain will let me have.

I'm feeling really tired, which is not the norm for me, but then I did get up at 6am - again not normal. I thought I had just gotten my pattern back to where it has to be, but now I'm not sure. I've been told that sometimes even when I'm asleep, I'm not sleeping properly - to alert, not going into deep sleep cycles . . or something like that. How are you supposed to battle sleep problems if they're happening in your sleep!?!?!

Big cyber hugs, Niqua. Sorry you have been ill. The days after stopping, the first two, I find, are the hardest. We may be different. Go as easy as you can. Your feelings are real as well.

I feel a bit off the rails tonight. It's after 2am and I haven't been to bed yet. Too excited from the day, though tired. I've been doing video on and off over the night.

My close friend is here too, stayed overnight. In the morning, she is going to drive me to the medical centre where I am getting an ultra sound. Solid rain happening here over next four days, we've had the start of it today. Might even be raining now.

More cyber hugs. Hope you feel better in the morning. @Former-Member

Good Morning Mazy @Mazarita

Thank you for the hugs Sending a slightly frantic, slightly squeezy 1 right now

I am feeling a bit better this morning, your right it's normally only a few days.

I hope you managed to curb an all-nighter into just an excited late night & got a little sleep

I'm so glad your friend stayed & is taking you for the scan! 🙂 I hope it's not a hair-line fracture, but if it is, you'll be more prepared for it. I also hope the pain is subsiding!

Haven't had any rain here for a couple of days, it's overcast & cooler 😄 😄 😄 {I think that's why I got into the lounge room ;)} The weather site often says rain, rain, rain - but it doesn't get to me! Less than 1/2 an hour away in my closest little town, it will rain . . . I'm just that little bit too inland to get it. I don't think it's too identifying to say I live towards the bottom left-hand corner of Qld 😉

Good Luck with the Scan Mazy

I love you

Niqua.