Niquas Notes

Hello my beautiful cyber-grandgirl Claire @outlander

It's waaayyyyy past Potatoe hour so I'd better get off this Forum for the morning! ;O I'm sooooo glad I stayed long enough for your love 1st though :D:)

Here's a bit for you

oh i love that @Former-Member aww ive saved that pic in my forum pics

love and hugs to you too, hoping the rest of your day is a good one

Mon19Feb 1345

The morning has finished & the afternoon is marching along at triple pace! I'm still in weekend mode! I have to go into town AGAIN today . . . I have a parcel to pick up from the post - I'm expecting a little 12vt battery of which when it arrives I will begin a battle with the seller, using Ebay as my shield. I really wanted to purchase the 2 x batteries, but every time I clicked on the description it took me to another Ad!?! I immediately sent a message questioning the seller if it was the 2xbatteries . . . they sent back 'sorry no, you've only purchased 1 & it's already been sent'. I question how quickly an item can be sent & also how unprofessional it is not to have a policy/proceedure in place for instances like confusion over the advertisement {that the seller blamed entirely on Ebay} . . . anyhow, I'm expecting a bit of a bump in my usual Evil Ebay transactions :$
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2020

It's raining again 🙂 There's a rumbling in sky! Like giants playing bowling balls along 50 km lanes 😄
and the coolness is calming, it releases hot tensions, lifting that oppression.
There was a wonderful cool wind on our walk, & gigantic, tall, fluffy, near black clouds too 🙂 😄 & it was a wind not a breeze, still somewhat gentle, but a bit buffetting. I noticed the trees all leaning a little to my right, but then here & there a tree-head or 2 would spin & twirl - like they were going to snap their heads off! It reminded me of the tree version of a dogs spinning-shake after a swim 🙂
Ah . . . there's a cool breeze sneaking in my back door 🙂 & the waft of broccoli cooking in the kitchen 😉 I bought some fancy chicken thingys for dinner tonight 🙂 . . . sort of rolled with a lump of butter in the middle - I'm going to lightly fry them, not sure how your supposed to do them?
It was the battery at the Post office, it's almost twice the size I thought it would be - I'm sort of impressed, but it doesn't change the fact that I messaged almost immediately asking to cancel it if it wasn't the 2 for 1 deal?!?!? Not sure what to do about it, I've already paid for it, . . . & hooked it up to the 2nd system to charge it. I'll sleep on it & decide whether to take it offically to a 'dispute' or not.
I think I'll cook my dinner, sit back & watch some shows, lay my old body down on the most comfortable bed in the Universe after that & sleep, wonderful, healing, essential sleep.
My poor child only texted tonight, a very short 1 too. Almost everyone in the house is sick, the partner had taken the youngest grandboy to the hospital {I don't think it was an emergency, they've had difficulties getting him into an appt.}, my child & the eldest grandboy are in bed sick with the bug now, the partner has just started getting over it (as has the partners parents). The poor things ❤️
Love to all that need or want it ❤️
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I pulled up a blanket this morning!! Yee Haa!!!!!!!!!

Hi Niqua, it's about 2am as I start to write this. Have already had about four hours sleep. Taking a break from it now to write to you. Will return to my bed again afterwards. I don't have to be up early in the morning, so all should be okay.

It's frustrating when things don't work out with ebay. I would suggest writing to the seller and let them know you are considering an ebay dispute. That may push them to resolve the matter with you first, to avoid that. I've also found that most sellers really want to avoid negative feedback as well. So sometimes even just mentioning feedback can help if they are being unhelpful in resolving a matter. If that all failed, I might then progress to a dispute. Or maybe not. Depends how much time you want to spend on it. Sometimes I've just 'written off' problems like that with ebay, to save time and further annoyance.

I love your description of thunder, 'like giants playing bowling balls along 50 km lanes'. I heard how that sounded. We have had some rain tonight, saw it outside when I awoke. I wonder if it will still be rainy in the morning. Still warm though, and humid.

I also love that you have 'the most comfortable bed in the Universe'. That must be one comfy bed!

Sorry to hear your child and family are down with a lurgie. Hoping they all heal quickly. And get back to ringing instead of texting.

I've been dreaming vividly lately, after a long time of not remembering my dreams. Woke from one that had the quality of a dream I've had many times before. There were people and places in it that created a sense of deja vu in the dream itself. From time to time I do especially dream of places that seem to have memories attached from other dreams, places I have no memory or knowledge of in waking life. Again, the fascination of dreams to me. I do understand what you say about your dreams though, how they have extreme fear attached to them. I am sorry that has been your experience. It gives me an idea of the traumas you have been through in your life.

I met with my old support worker yesterday for a couple of hours, so lovely to hang out with her again. We hadn't seen each other for about eight months. Walked a long distance on the beach with her, then adjourned to a park bench for a while. Got a lot of sun. My face is glowing pink with sunglass rings where they were protecting me. I wore my hat but, as usual, it didn't protect against all the sun. My arms seem to have browned this time around, not a usual thing really. I tend to burn more than brown. But this time around I might even resemble a Queenslander when I go down south to visit mum next week.

Around midday today I have art group. In fact I have outings booked every day this week, some activity based, others medical. I like it when I have something on every day of the week. My troublesome moods seem to be more a phenomenon of spending too much time alone in the flat. Getting out, even just to one activity, breaks it up and gives me a feeling of achievment in the day.

Well, I think I've covered everything that comes to mind at 2.30am now. Sending super charged two-for-one batteries of cyber-love to you. And hugs. And cheek kisses. Ciao for now, Niqua. Until next time... Mazy.

@Former-Member

Good Morning Mazy @Mazarita 🙂

I think all that sleep is a good thing Maz 🙂 makes up for when it doesn't come. I also think I'm noticiing a much better pattern to it for you 🙂 A gigantic YE HA! for that Mazy

Ah . . . the evil Ebay attack has begun. I looked through all the details, I have not only dates but times of transaction & messages. {I also took a screen-dump of the Ad I was trying to purchase from}. I clearly state that if it is not the 2 for 1 deal I want to cancel & receive a refund - that particular comment of mine was ignored. So I'm teaming up with Ebay & asking for their help! 😉

I must have been afraid of storms when I was young, somehow I got this story about giants playing bowls on top of their mountain, that was so high we couldn't see it; & when they get a strike they set off fireworks, but again it's so high up that all we see is the streaks of light we call lightning 🙂 But not to worry, it's just giants celebrating a bowling strike 😄 ;D

I do have a comfortable bed 🙂 & an even more comfortable mattress topper 😄 & pillows! I've had a lot of 'not so good' beds in my day, I remember I had 1 where a couple of springs had come through, I thought I'd fix the problems by cutting them away with wire cutters? . . . next thing I know I'm getting stabbed by needle points through the night! 😄 🙂 & if I remember correctly, I just chucked a couple of quilts on it & tried to remember where not to sleep! 😉

My child rang last night, they sound exhausted. They were too sick to go to the hospital with the youngest 1, although the partner was still getting over it. They said the partner thought the hospital was full of people that didn't really need to be there; I didn't say anything, but that's probably because the Doctors were full . . . then the hospitals get full of not-so-necessary patients. The youngest grandboy had a temp of 41, & with a houseful of sick people that's too high not to be checked. I felt a little guilty, only a couple of nights ago I'd told my child I thought it was time to start lining up at the hospital, the doctors aren't doing anything for the little fella, they say he's most likely Celiac but that he's too young for the tests. Whenever he goes to a Doctor, just as the other night at the hospital, they 'pick up' that he's constipated - I mean the poor liitle buggers bottom bleeds!!! They also discovered a large infected area behind his middle ear - the poor little bugger!!! . . . all they did was give him a laxitive & some ear drops!!!

My child took him to a specialist the following day, he had to go to a special patholigist (bloods taker) as they have experience with children & she was given a patch to put on him to numb the area {wish they'd done that when my child was little!} & he's going to an appointment with my childs Doctor tomorrow. I know what the gut problems are like, I also suffered a lot of ear aches when younger - to have both at once is just too cruel to think of! No wonder he 'acts out' a little?!? The poor little boy, you know looking at it a few steps back like I do, . . .he's been sick since he was born.

My child is going back to work though, choosing to start at midday & work late so that they can get the youngest grandboy to appointsments or so on. I've been really pushing for my child to put in for holidays, though trying to explain that the 'holiday' is not having to deal with their own work hours for a while, they'll still have everybody else's & 5 children, a sometimes turmultuous partner, the partners judgemental parents & everything else that goes on in their life - but they are sick often too & I don't think thier body {which can have invisible ailments} will heal properly until they have a break of some kind.

I retreated during the maddness of thier hours over January, they have kept going & now have changed to later hours; which will put the whole household onto later hours, as it's still pretty well up to my child to provide the evening meal - & the whole household revolves around that. I have stepped back for fear that my inability to cope would add to my childs burdens, but I still worry; though to be honest it still niggles me that nothing has happened with the eldest grandgirl, my child just doesn't speak of her often, I believe she's grounded.

Wow, that was a bit of a blurb - thanks, I think I really wanted to get that out. The functioning chaotic family, isn't functioning so well.

I'm glad your dream went back to the Theatre last night 🙂 I quite like a good movie as you know, so being able to watch 1 that you directed, chose the actors and starring roles & wrote yourself from scratch . . . well, I could see the attraction to that 😄 🙂

It made me smile to read about your meet-up with your friend who you hadn't seen for 8 months 😄 🙂 & how you got to spend to lovely 2 hours together . . . & the emphasis on that is the 'lovely'

That bloody skin of yours :X . . . do you like the idea of a 'Parosol' - Guru Google says -

"par·a·sol/ˈperəˌsôl/ - noun: parasol, plural noun: parasols - a light umbrella used to give shade from the sun. I've gathered a few pics for you, in fact it's tempting me to use that evil ebay again . . . I really like the hat! XD

Well, now that I've had enough fun playing with parasol pictures 🙂 & maybe slipped a little subliminal nagging in there 😉 🙂 I can get on with what I was saying 🙂 So your transforming into a true banana bender hey 😉 Be careful with that! Particularly with your skin!!! {nag, nag, nag ;)} I avoid the sun like it's a curse, but still have darker skin - in fact my brother was on Abstudy for years!?! & yet to my knowledge there's no aboriginal family members . . . to my knowledge. I've always thought it was pretty weird?

I imagine you might be getting a little nervous for your exciting trip to your Mum 'down under' & the super-duper {for me it would be a 'this is not happening'} screening event during that visit. I'm no Doctor, in fact I'm from the other side of the fence, but I've what I've seen is that you've been on a bit of a roller-coaster {they're kind of hard to avoid when your breathing ;)} & you've been doing something about it, with medications, communications {here&with your Doctors&friends}, socialization {your better than me girl!}, & just plain hard work & true grit. You've never given-up, you give yourself time to re-group/re-coup & your carrying on 🙂 I'm seeing a much better sleep pattern, a much more concious Mazy Perhaps that's what dreaming means to you as an individual, like a part of a computers processor waking up - a good thing! I think everythings coming together just in time for all these special occasions Maybe the Universe is finally going to give you a break & allow you, in your own be-fuzzled way, enjoy creating some life-long memories

I hear you with the 1 activity giving you a sense of acheivement! I think my daily 'social' activity is my time on the Forum here & my walk with the dogs, but I like to get, even if it's just 1, housework activity done each day too . . .

Oh my . . . it's now well & truly past Potatoe hour, & I've been writing this all day {well . . . maybe I spent a bit of time playing with pictures & getting drawn back into the Evil zone :)} I'm going to log back in to post this & then run 🙂

Lots of love & happiness to you my dear friend

Niqua

Aw . . . not all the pictures copied -

Here's the rest:-

Hahaha, Niqua, love all the parasol pictures! Especially the top purple one with the black underside, too cool for school! And the white lacy one is beautiful too. I can't see myself using one though, as the beach is often windy (today especially!) However, you will be pleased to know that EEbay just delivered me a big white scarf/shawl thing that I can sweep over my shoulders and around my neck when out walking in future. And you know I have my trusty black hat already. My pale freckled skin will be back to its Melbourne colours in no time.

More words from me coming soon. In the meantime, love to you, as always. @Former-Member

Good middle-of-the-night, Niqua. Hope you are sleeping peacefully. I've had about 4-5 hours sleep already. Awake for now, thought I'd add some more words in reply to your last message here.

You are right in noticing an overall improvement in my sleeping, though it's probably a bit contradictory to say that as I'm here writing at 3am, hehe. But yes, the main difference is that I have been going to bed quite early, sometimes as early as 9pm. Unheard of for me! This means that, even if I wake in the night, like now, overall I am getting more sleep before rising for the day around 8am. Makes a difference indeed!

Sorry to hear your child and family are still sick, and that your child continues to push self beyond reasonable limits. Hard too that your youngest grandchild has such health problems. May they all heal rapidly.

Best wishes with your ebay dispute. Sounds like you have good evidence on your side.

I've managed to do myself some further physical damage today, probably when half-running to catch a bus. I've somehow badly hurt my left foot. It is painful to do any weight bearing, so walking is a problem. It throbs even when just sitting still, elevated or otherwise. I've been limping around since early afternoon. I am a bit worried I may have a hairline stress fracture of one of the small bones.

So I rang the home visit doctor this evening, who came and checked it out, wrapped the foot in a bandage, and prescribed some pain relief. He said to see how it's going in the morning but if still very painful I should go to my regular doctor with the idea of getting an x-ray. I kinda wish he'd referred me for x-ray himself, so as to avoid having two trips to make today. Taxi fares aren't cheap and I can't catch a bus like this.

So when a reasonable hour has arrived this morning, it looks like I'm going to have to cancel my once-a-year-haircut appointment, which was to be followed elsewhere by a first-ever small waxing job (my chinny chin chin). Wanted to look my glamorous best for Melbourne, not sure that's going to work out at the moment. Also wondering how the trip is going to go in entirety with my foot the way it is. Hopefully it is not what I fear, and heals itself fast.

That is weird about your brother being on Abstudy but you not being aware of aboriginal blood in your family. Have you asked him about it? I wonder if he knows something you don't. I actually think there's probably a lot of 'white' Australians who have aboriginal ancestry that has been 'covered up' somewhere down the generational line.

The 'much more conscious' me that you describe is also partly because I've been weaning myself off green, as I've mentioned before. March 1 is my absolute quit date (day I go to Melbourne). Have had very little for quite some time now though. If I was able to use it in moderation all the time, I'd be all for it, but I am very addictive in my relation to it and it can take over my life way too easily. Good on you that it helps you in moderation. I agree with that kind of use of it.

Your days sound good, Niqua: outing with the dogs, some housework, entertainment of an evening, good food. You are going well, it seems to me, especially when compared to how you seemed when you first arrived on the forum. I love seeing you happy. Hugs! @Former-Member

Morning Mazy @Mazarita 🙂

I was sleeping peacefully while you wrote this morning 🙂 I am really glad that your getting more sleep, what pattern it comes in, well that's a very individual thing 🙂

Oh no Mazy! You are going to go to the Doctor & follow up on what's wrong with your foot I hope! Even if it is fractured, if you find out proper you might get the right kind of bandage to support it. I think it might be better to know, that way you can prepare a little for it. Maybe you could hire a wheelchair or crutches, . . . with a wheelchair, if you weren't using it, your Mum or her Sister might like to sit down 🙂

What a thing to happen so close to your trip! Bugger!! It'll all be fine though - hey . . . you can use it as an excuse for some quiet time, you know "I've got to have a rest, my foot hurts" 😉

Well, it seems I may have beaten you with the green, I ran out last night. I've managed to avoid the brunt of reality since the xmas kerfuffle, now it's time to try putting my feet back on the ground.

. . . wish me luck.

You can't miss the hairdo & the smooth upper lip! Your going to be famous!!! You've got to get the 'Movie Star' look happening!!! 😉 😄 {actually you don't have to do anything you don't want to do & you can do whatever you want to do :D}

I never spoke to my Brother about much, he was kind of the 'black sheep' of the family {maybe literally, though my Mother & 1 sibling are the only 1s with lighter skin}. He passed away a few years ago now, lung cancer.

I seem to be running out of writing . . . I have done a bit of late 😉 I wouldn't be surprised if perhaps a little bit of negitive starts bubbling up, without a certain herbal relaxant to settle it down.

Love to you Mazy

Niqua