Niquas Notes

hugs Niqua. try not to loose your confidence with her, if she doesnt ring tomorrow perhaps you could give them a ring. youll speak to reception and all youll need to do it make the apointment. is she able to make an appt over an email? @Former-Member

I haven't made a phone call in years Claire @outlander. I'm beginning to think I was just over-reacting, it's like you said it's a chaotic family & it's just gotten too much for me. I've always seen the sense in actions speaking louder than words - words can be lies. My daughters actions, even my grandchildrens, have not been those of love and caring. I just wanted it so bad I refused to see it. I don't think it's abandoning someone when they've already abandoned you. These pills have taken the desperation away, but the saddness has become a feeling of utter defeat.

Sorry Claire, you don't need my downer.

Love to you.

@Former-Memberyour on a downer yes but your not putting it on me. if i didnt want to help then i wouldnt comment

to others it might seem like your over reacting but to you your not and that is the part that matters. you need some extra help and support to talk things out, get some more guidance in real life as i know forums can be limiting abit as well.

these are big emotions Niqua and you dont have to go them alone. theres help out there.

thats ok about making a call, perhaps when you see your gp you could ask her to ring for you to make that step? with you in the room you can get the date and time but without having to talk over the phone...

love to you too

That is shocking that she didn’t call after putting you on standby @Former-Member .....

Good morning ...... I hope you do speak yo your gp and receive the support you should be ..... grrrr .....

Sometimes there is a reasonable explanation for why you have been let down, but even if there is, you would have expected to hear it before the end of the day ..... ?

Stay strong @Former-Member ..... hugs ❣️

Good Morning Mazy @Mazarita, Claire @outlander, @Faith-and-Hope and Everyone,

I received an email at 10.45pm from the psychologist apologizing for not calling, saying she was out of town on Tuesdays & wasn't able to. I wonder though, wouldn't she have known she was 'out of town on Tuesdays' when she sent the message saying she'd call on that day? And the number on the card is a mobile number, though I know there's plenty of 'bad signal' areas out here.

I am the one who has asked for help, I feel very lucky to have been offered a female to speak with, just as I feel very lucky to have a female GP. I think I have decided to let go of my daughter, which means letting go of my grandchildren, a very, very difficult decision to make. But despite my saddness I still feel an element of relief, I have even managed to put a little money back into my savings.

I have to get going now, I have an appt.

Love to all

Hearing you @Former-Member ..... will continue sitting with you as you work out your way forward .....

Hugs ❣️

Good morning, Niqua and everyone.

Niqua, glad the psychologist contacted you again. Hope you get an actual appointment with her soon.

Perhaps you don't need to decide at this point whether you will let go of your daughter and family, or aim for reconciliation in the long run. I'd probably be talking about this with my psychologist. That way many different angles on the subject can be explored in a therapeutic context, and give you a better idea of where to go. Sometimes we aren't in full control of these things and just have to wait to see what happens, with family, and with ourselves.

Really glad too that you have a female doctor and a female psychologist. And that you are going for yourself first of all. Wonderful that your savings are rising a little again. The most important thing is looking after you, I think. What was going on was no good and you have ended that, even if it happened in a traumatic way. There's still plenty of time to either get more used to being without your family, or to mend bridges if that arises too.

Hope today is brighter for you.

Love, Mazy @Former-Member

I'm back from the doctors, though I was late arriving because I got pulled up by a traffic cop for doing 52km in a school zone. I wasn't able to think about it until I got home, I thought school zone hours were 7-9am, it was nearly 10am when he pulled me over - it will cost me $168. I really didn't need that. The doctor said she didn't think I needed to raise the dose of this medication & I told her that when I've finished this box I would like to see how I go without it. These pills always hurt my mouth, not just dry but sore & my gums bleed, I don't need that, I feel bad enough as it is.

The policeman sent the ticket to my phone, it's so small it's unreadable, I have a very basic phone I don't use it much. I don't even know how to go about paying it. I will wait until my next payment & go into the police station & ask.

The psycologist still hasn't rung.

@Former-Member ..... ❤️